If you are stumbling upon my blog for the first time, I urge you to read from the beginning. I'm afraid the last part of this blog, while new for me is pretty pedestrian. The juicy stuff is at the beginning.
Well, thanks, but I think this will be the last update on this subject. Not quite sure.
And it's been 4 1/2 years of hookups. Remember, I didn't start this blog until almost two years after my first encounter, so most all the stories are two years old.
Jack, this is an amazing development for you. Putting myself in your shoes (deck shoes, I guess), I'd be both excited and terrified. Excited for the romantic experience and the awesome feeling of connecting with a guy who was obviously into me, and terrified about what it means for my closeted public life. But your experience sounds natural and cool and right, and I'm happy for you.
I hope you might share more about this later on, no matter what happens in the relationship. There are readers like me who might learn something from the process. Plus, I'm sure many of us feel close to you since we've been following your exploits for a while.
I'm glad it was a good weekend for you. I'm curious about why the "no sex" rule and wondering if that changed before the weekend was over. But I see your post says it was a group of "mostly" gay guys. So maybe you didn't want to out yourself to the non-gay friends. I guess they got the picture before long. Anyway, thanks for sharing.
Adam, thanks for your comment. I hadn't actually considered a reader might learn something from my experience, so....hmmmmm. Maybe another reason to share despite my desire to keep it private.
I told my new buddy that I didn't want sex, because I wanted to take it slow, like when I had dated women. My hook up experiences were all so pre-planned (which I actually like) but this was the first guy I ever met in a real life setting. Straight people can do it all the time. See a pretty girl in the grocery store or with friends, flirt, date, then have sex.
That was my thinking.
Of course two horny guys.........well.
I'll tell you a little more of the story.
We went to bed, but still we couldn't keep our hands off each other. Finally, we snuck off the top deck, to an empty bedroom and had oral sex! My new buddy was really like a high school boy. Once I had "gotten him off" he calmed down, and quit pestering me, and we were able to enjoy a nice peaceful sleep, although he insisted on spooning the entire night, being both the big and little spoon, and this continued all 5 nights on the houseboat.
We had oral sex a half dozen more times, and yes, it was mostly gay guys on the boat. 4 gay guys, me (am I really gay?) and a lesbian!
i'm happy for you but i'm afraid your blog will become really boring if and when you find true love. oh well, i will live vicariously through somebody else, then. the pursuit of happiness is everybody's right.
I hope you don't get too tangled up in the labels, because in the end a strong mutual connection is somewhat rare... One where it seems like you're getting as much as giving and it just feels easy and natural. Regardless of gender, that connection is sweet to live in and feels even nicer in the moment instead of figuring out the what ifs and meanings a couple steps ahead, ya know?
I think i would feel weird if i saw myself in a picture being intimate with another guy. Maybe I just haven't met that one who will make me feel I don't care about appearing gay anymore.
If I really liked someone, I would try to hold off the sex too for a while. Even blow jobs.
This is so cool! I'm glad to hear you just went with it and enjoyed it when he stuck his neck out like that. What an awesome way to meet and get involved with someone, what a great experience to have, out there under the stars like that. Very cool.
Good for you Jack. It is a bizarre step to take - that first time showing one's gay side in 'public' - but a good one. I am not sure if this is from a couple of years ago or if you are now writing in the present but it is good all the same.
After more than two years of hook-ups, this is certainly an interesting change. I'm looking forward to your next update.
ReplyDeleteWell, thanks, but I think this will be the last update on this subject. Not quite sure.
ReplyDeleteAnd it's been 4 1/2 years of hookups. Remember, I didn't start this blog until almost two years after my first encounter, so most all the stories are two years old.
The last two updates however, are real time.
Jack, this is an amazing development for you. Putting myself in your shoes (deck shoes, I guess), I'd be both excited and terrified. Excited for the romantic experience and the awesome feeling of connecting with a guy who was obviously into me, and terrified about what it means for my closeted public life. But your experience sounds natural and cool and right, and I'm happy for you.
ReplyDeleteI hope you might share more about this later on, no matter what happens in the relationship. There are readers like me who might learn something from the process. Plus, I'm sure many of us feel close to you since we've been following your exploits for a while.
I'm glad it was a good weekend for you. I'm curious about why the "no sex" rule and wondering if that changed before the weekend was over. But I see your post says it was a group of "mostly" gay guys. So maybe you didn't want to out yourself to the non-gay friends. I guess they got the picture before long. Anyway, thanks for sharing.
Adam, thanks for your comment. I hadn't actually considered a reader might learn something from my experience, so....hmmmmm. Maybe another reason to share despite my desire to keep it private.
DeleteI told my new buddy that I didn't want sex, because I wanted to take it slow, like when I had dated women. My hook up experiences were all so pre-planned (which I actually like) but this was the first guy I ever met in a real life setting. Straight people can do it all the time. See a pretty girl in the grocery store or with friends, flirt, date, then have sex.
That was my thinking.
Of course two horny guys.........well.
I'll tell you a little more of the story.
We went to bed, but still we couldn't keep our hands off each other. Finally, we snuck off the top deck, to an empty bedroom and had oral sex! My new buddy was really like a high school boy. Once I had "gotten him off" he calmed down, and quit pestering me, and we were able to enjoy a nice peaceful sleep, although he insisted on spooning the entire night, being both the big and little spoon, and this continued all 5 nights on the houseboat.
We had oral sex a half dozen more times, and yes, it was mostly gay guys on the boat. 4 gay guys, me (am I really gay?) and a lesbian!
Jack.
i'm happy for you but i'm afraid your blog will become really boring if and when you find true love. oh well, i will live vicariously through somebody else, then. the pursuit of happiness is everybody's right.
ReplyDeleteI hope you don't get too tangled up in the labels, because in the end a strong mutual connection is somewhat rare... One where it seems like you're getting as much as giving and it just feels easy and natural. Regardless of gender, that connection is sweet to live in and feels even nicer in the moment instead of figuring out the what ifs and meanings a couple steps ahead, ya know?
ReplyDeleteAwesome sauce.
Cheers!
I think i would feel weird if i saw myself in a picture being intimate with another guy. Maybe I just haven't met that one who will make me feel I don't care about appearing gay anymore.
ReplyDeleteIf I really liked someone, I would try to hold off the sex too for a while. Even blow jobs.
This is so cool! I'm glad to hear you just went with it and enjoyed it when he stuck his neck out like that. What an awesome way to meet and get involved with someone, what a great experience to have, out there under the stars like that. Very cool.
ReplyDeleteGood for you Jack. It is a bizarre step to take - that first time showing one's gay side in 'public' - but a good one. I am not sure if this is from a couple of years ago or if you are now writing in the present but it is good all the same.
ReplyDeleteThe last two entries are recent. The houseboat trip was over Labor Day 2013.
DeleteI hope it works out
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