Happy Holidays

Happy Holidays everyone.

I'm not a real fan of Christmas, but if you are then great.

I'm in Southern California with my Mom, and will drive with my sister to our Dad's house tomorrow.  This is the only place where everyone I know, is aware of my secret.  It's kind of nice.  I don't suppose that it will be too long before I let the cat of the bag with my close friends at home.  I'm still unsure about my co-workers, but I'm sure in time everyone will be on board.

The Amigo is in Mexico, visiting his family.  It's bitter sweet.

He hasn't been home in 5 years, and recently his family has suffered two tragedies.  Amigo was very upset that he was so far away, and felt so helpless.  After the first tragedy, the death of a sister, we booked him a ticket to go home for the Christmas break.  Then a couple weeks ago, a very close neice (more like a sister than a neice) was injured in a traffic accident, and had to have her foot amputated.  Amigo could not focus on his school work, and this was during his finals.  I'm afraid his grades are suffering.

Honestly, neither of us were sure if Amigo was even going to come back.  Perhaps his family needed him at home.  His sister that recently passed away was the care taker of the family, and especially Amigo's aging mother.

Amigo and I text several times a day, and we usually "facetime" chat in the morning and evening.  This year, Amigos family is apparently not celebrating Christmas.  His mom doesn't feel up to it and I guess that they are trying to respect her wishes.  At least that's my take on it.  Communication is still not perfect between the Amigo and I, and he seems reluctant to talk about the subject.

One thing I can tell is that returning home to Mexico is not the joyous occasion I thought it was going to be.  I was so happy that Amigo was returning home after a long and hard 5 years away.  I guess I failed to realize that he was returning to a saddened house.  He felt so helpless being a thousand miles away, and now, he feels helpless even though he's home.

I feel pretty sure that he will decide to come back to Utah.  I know he misses me and hopefully he can graduate in a year (or less I hope).

I'll know for sure, on New Year's day when we are both scheduled to fly back to SLC.

Until then, Happy Holidays everyone.

Post Thanksgiving.

There's not much to report here from Jackville.

The Amigo suggested we drive to California to visit my mom during his Thanksgiving break from School.  Neither of us realized that he had the entire week off, so when he found out, we made travel plans.

The Amigo LOVES my mother.  My mom is a very affectionate person and loves strong masculine hugs.  Her husband died of a sudden heard attach 8 years ago, and she craves a strong manly hug like crazy.  The Amigo has been away from home and hasn't seen HIS mother in 5 years, so he loves hugging my mom.  It's really good for both of them.  They embrace and squeeze each other when ever they are together.

The trip was good, although the drive from Salt Lake to California is 11-12 hours, and I dislike driving those long distances.  We stopped overnight in Vegas on the way down, and in Mesquite on the way back, so it's wasn't too bad.

My magic boner pills from India finally showed up 2 days before the trip.  The were sent with signature conformation, so I had to go to the post office to pick them up, but there were no other complications, and they seem to work just like the old ones did.

I also had another blog reader offer to send me his supply of Cialis, as he is a young handsome virile stud that doesn't really need them...   ;)

Thanks man.  You know who you are.

I haven't tried the Cialis yet, I'm going to wait for this weekend to give them a test drive.

Things went well for the Amigo and I on our trip.  I was a little worried that being with him 24/7 for nine straight (no pun intended) days would drive me a little crazy, but I enjoyed all of our time together.  We even had Thanksgiving dinner with another gay couple.  "Los Maricones" as the Amigo calls them.

My sister's good friend came out about 20 or 25 years ago.  He and his partner live in West Hollywood, I think.

I know......They live in West Hollywood and they are gay?  Shocking!

Last Thanksgiving, my sister invited "Los Maricones" to have dinner with them, and I was in Salt Lake, with Amigo.  We had only been dating a couple of months at that point.  I had a Skype conversation with them, and it was a little strange talking to my mom and sister, and the gay couple having dinner with them, all the time having my secret new boyfriend, just out of frame at my house.  It was just a month later that I would come out to my parents, and tell them about Amigo while visiting them last Christmas.  How time flies when you're having a gay old time, eh?

Sex with the Amigo still continues to frustrate me.  The feeling when we fuck is the best ever.  Seriously, I could not imagine a fuck toy designed to deliver more pleasure to my penis that when we screw, yet I still only achieve orgasm half the time.  When I do, it's mind blowing!  Culminating in an almost seizure like climax.  But like I said, it only happens half of the time.  The other half the poor Amigo is pummeled for 20 or more minutes until I tire or he becomes too sore.

This happened in the Hotel in Mesquite.  Luckily for me, he offered one of his fantastic blow jobs and I was able to deliver my load to him orally, then we satisfied him, by hand as usual.

Again, it's strange, as the Amigo gives me one of the best feeling BJs ever (and I'm quite the connoisseur if I do say so myself) but a few times, I've failed at achieving an orgasm by that means.  Grrrr.  So frustrating!  If it feels so good, why don't I cum ??!!

I know there is a mental block there, but I can't seem to find a sure-fire way around it.

So here it is.  December already.  My thermometer reads 18 degrees outside.  Brrrr.

Gobble, Gobble.

Again, I'm a little torn by my desire to hookup, and my desire to be faithful to the Amigo.

There was some drama a few weeks ago.  A little disagreement that led to the Amigo not spending the weekend here with me, and giving me the silent treatment for two days.  He also left me a not-so-subtle message by posting on his Facebook page:

" I believe in Love, but I doubt it will ever find me."

Ouch.

I have learned my lesson with the Amigo.  He builds things up in his mind, then reality slaps him in the face, and he over reacts.  A few days later things return to normal.  Kind of like a "market correction" in the stock market.  Over inflated values burst, stocks plummet, then rebound to about the same level.

During this period of silence, I knew the Amigo was reevaluating our relationship, and I took this as justification to look for some "D."

When he returned the following weekend, he acted as if nothing happened, and even my attempts to "talk about it" were brushed aside.

Gay Drama.  Uuuuugh.  I don't wan't it.  Again, the lesson was reinforced.....Don't participate in the drama, and things will work out fine.

Part of my justification for hooking up, is the Amigos lack of enthusiasm, when it comes to oral sex.  Both giving and receiving.   I mean he's not totally unwilling or anything, but I can tell he doesn't love it, like I do.  And....I must admit, he's turned into one great cocksucker.  His BJs feel better than most I've ever had.  Problem is stamina.  They're great for 5, 6, even 7 minutes, then.....he's tired.  He's over it.

Mostly, I ask him to blow me before we have sex, just to get me good and hard, and a little lubed up.  He does enjoy it on those terms.

Then, he surprised me on two weekends ago.  As I undressed for a shower, he came in the bedroom and pushed me to the bed and gave me head!  OMG, it was great.

One problem though.  I wasn't anticipating it, and even though it was great, I didn't cum.  In fact, after 10 minutes or so went by, and his commitment to my organism was obvious, my dick went soft!

Oh man!  If there was ever a time I wanted to reward the Amigo for taking initiative, this was it and my aging body betrayed me!  Grrrrr.

Speaking of body betrayal, I still experience difficulty in achieving orgasm while having sex with the Amigo.  It's downright baffling.  The pleasure on my dick as we fuck is mind blowing.  It's great!  Really, there's nothing like it.  Sometimes I wonder if it's too overwhelming.  Is there something like over-stimulation, over-pleasuring that derails an orgasm?  It's so frustrating!

If I know ahead of time that we are gonna f*ck, I take my 1/4 Viagra, and this allows me to maintain enough of an erection, even after the crucial 10 minute mark.  If I haven't cum in the first ten minutes of penetration, then I pass some arbitrary point, and it's unlikely that I will cum.  That doesn't keep me from trying though.  It all feels great, and sometimes, I do indeed work my self back to an orgasm.  But only sometimes.  Without the Viagra, I usually go soft after the 10 minute mark, and all hope is lost.

Speaking of Viagra, my supply of generic Sildenafil, which came from India, a couple years ago, is almost gone.  The website that I ordered it from has disappeared, and my attempts to locate something trustworthy have been unfruitful.  All the sites seem to want to take me to a Russian Website, and I'm very leery about typing in a credit card number.

Tomorrow I have a routine check up with the urologist.  I'm going to ask him for a prescription. Why not?  I think with my insurance the cost shouldn't be too bad, right?  Besides, I cut the 100 mg pills into quarters anyway.

I guess I strayed.  Back to the hookup dilemma.

So, after the unsolicited BJ attempt, I decided to try and go a week without hooking up.  Without looking at Craigslist or opening Grindr.

It didn't go well.  My will power is weak.

I didn't hookup, but I would have if some young dude had hit me up on Grindr.  I traveled outside my regular routine for work, and could not resist turning on Grindr to try and experience "New Meat Syndrome."  I guess it was fate, because nothing came through.  I did get a few hits from guys closer to my own age, but I turned everyone down, and so in the end, I went the entire week without a single hookup on the side.

This last weekend was pretty good with the Amigo.  We had a great f*ck session Saturday morning, that culminated in two very happy homos.  Sunday did not go quit as well.  I thought I was going to cum again quite quickly, during our morning session, but alas, it was not to be.  Amigo received quite a thorough pounding though, and he thanked me for it.  We are both a little frustrated when I don't cum.  :(

Later around noon, I was looking on the computer (porn) and Amigo was doing something on his laptop (homework) and watching TV.  He noticed the boner in my lounge pants, grabbed it.  This let to a kiss of my dick which led to another blowjob, and ......BOOM!  A huge powerful orgasm.

Whew!  I needed that.

I tried to repay the favor, but my BJ for him deteriorated to a hand job, and finally he took over for himself, as I did my best to help him get off with kissing, nuzzling, nipple play, etc.  Long story short: Amigo shot his wad all over the towel, and himself, and the chair and the floor.  Gee whiz.  Lechero.

So, anyway, that's it for now, except to say I got with this kid again this morning.  Dang hot young kids wanting oral!  So hard to resist!  I won't go into details....except he wanted to 69, and damn if I didn't cum in his mouth while sucking him off.  So hot.

Oddly enough when one searched the web for gay Turkey Sex, one doesn't find many photos.

Two cocks by 9AM

Dude 465 was a kid who hit me up on Grindr.  I'm not sure how he found me since I was several miles away.

It was very early morning, and his stat's weren't too bad, so I agreed to drive to his place and suck him off.  I quickly showered and headed out into the darkness.

He sent me his location using the "send location" feature on Grindr, which works very well, but only gets you so close.  He didn't send a house number.

When I arrived, I guess I parked in front of the wrong house, and he told me to "pull forward."  Then he said to "go to the right side of the garage and go to the back."   Problem was, I pulled too far forward, and walked to into the carport of the wrong house.

A voice in the darkness, called out, and I found my way next door, to the guy I was supposed to hook up with.  He was shirtless, and in bare feet and sweat pants, and guided me to an outside (well, it was a cement stairway, inside a garage) entrance to his basement apartment.  The guy didn't look 22, more like 26 or older, but who cares.

Once in there, we didn't waste much time, and both took down our pants.  His came all the way off, and mine went to my ankles.  Despite his screen name being "69" all he did was fondle my cock before I went to work in earnest on his.

He had a nice long dick.  Kind of surprising as he was a little rolly polly, and body types like that tend to have more average cocks, but cocks are like the Cracker Jack prize.  You just never know what's going to be in that package.  There were other bonuses to his dick;  It was thin enough to fit between my molars, and it had a downward banana curve to it, allowing it to go deep into my mouth and throat without triggering a gag reflex.   It's not often I can take a dick deep like that.


Almost immediately  his balls sucked up into his abdomen.  Something my testicles do as well.  I sucked for only 5 minutes or so, when I tasted cum in my mouth and noticed his breathing had changed.   There was no warning of his orgasm.

I was a good cock sucker, lightly coaxing out the longest orgasm possible.  When we finished, I swallowed, then went back to clean up his dick.


I quick pulled up my boxers and Levis over my own leaky boner, and fled, thanking him over my shoulder, as he lay back on his bed, panting in the tiny studio apartment.

While I was in the new area, I kept Grindr on, and chatted up a couple other lads, but nothing came to fruition and I drove home as the eastern sky started to grow light.  Daylight savings time starts this weekend, so it the sun doesn't come up here until almost 8AM.

As I was home, contemplating how to take care of my own hard-on, another guy on Grindr hit me up.  I guess he is Dude 466

This guy had NO info on his profile.  Nothing, nada.  He did have a full body/face picture, and he seemed nice looking.  I would have guessed an almost 30-ish business guy, or college grad student, judging from the slacks and button up shirt in his photo.

He told me he was at the airport, waiting for a flight, and had some time to mess around.  I offered to come to the airport parking garage and suck him off in the car.  "How far do you live from the airport?  Can't we go back to your place, of find somewhere more discreet?" he asked.

Sure,  Why not.  I had a dermatology appointment out south at 9:30, but there was plenty of time to do this.

So, I drove to the airport and found the guy.  He was waiting at the passenger pick up curb with his roll aboard suitcase, wearing shorts.  He had just come in from Hawaii!

Well, the guy turned out to be a young man.  I could tell right away, he was nowhere near 30!  He was very chatty, and said he was through with school and trying to figure out his next move.  I assumed he meant college.

Once back in my house, I started to take off his pants, and he asked if I was going to take off some of my clothes too.

Sure.  This doesn't have to be one sided.  I shucked my pants, but left on my t-shirt.  He got completely  naked and I fell to my knees and started to suck on his impressive cock.  At least 7 inches, when fully hard, he was cut, with a perfect mushroom head.  It was almost too big to suck, but I was up to the challenge for sure.  So tasty!  He had a nice hairy bush and furry legs too, although completely smooth above his treasure trail, save his hairy armpits.  A perfect body really.

He was moaning and really getting into it.  He grabbed my head a couple times and kissed the top of my head.  As he clawed at my t-shirt, he managed to pull me up and kissed me on the lips!  Then he got a surprised look on his face as if he suddenly realized he was doing something taboo.

We continued the BJ and after a while he informened me that he rarely cums from a BJ, and started jerking his big dick, while mauling me and kissing me.


I led him by the hand to my bedroom and unmade bed.  He lay back and we rolled around some more.  As I was gnawing on his neck, and fondling his junk, he lifted his leg, and exposed his hairy asshole.  I rubbed it and he sighed and moaned his approval.

I told him to let me know if I did anything he didn't want me to do, he should let me know.

"Okay, sure" he said, and I pushed my finger into his tight, tight asshole.

I had to spit on my finger a few times.  His anus was giving me the death grip, but he kept encouraging me to continue.  I sucked his cock and fingered his ass and he was loving it, but soon moved me out of the way so he could fist his own cock.

He did put his other hand on mine, and used it to guide me to push my finger even deeper in his ass.  He pounded his big cock and panted instructions,  "deeper, faster, yah, just like that."

I fingered his young hairy asshole as best I could.  It was still super tight, and I tried to get my mouth back on that beautiful dick, but he would not allow it.  As he fisted his dick, I found other things to suck with my mouth; his smooth torso, his nipples, his neck.  His lips.  He was in ecstasy.

Soon he gasped, and I felt his prostate pulse, and he shot jet after jet of cum, onto his stomach, the first shots almost reaching his chin.

I just watched and fingered and he shot out about 8 ropes of cum.

He let me take a couple pictures
of his cock after I he blew his wad

When he stopped pounding, I carefully withdrew my finger from his ass, and was allowed to go down on his still hard cock and taste the last pearl of jizz, and clean him off with my mouth.

Maybe it was a good thing that I didn't have it in my mouth when he erupted, as I would have surely drown.  He was covered in cum.

He lay back in post orgasmic bliss, panting and smiling, and I went to the bathroom to wash my hands, and get him a wet washcloth to clean up with.

He apologized for not allowing me to suck him off, and that he has never cum from a blow job, and he he just loves to cum on his stomach.  Truth be told, I loved watching it.

On the ride back to the airport, he was very chatty again, and he said he hadn't really been with many guys, and hoped that I didn't think he was a slut.  If he only knew.

He also said he didn't like guys his age, and thought himself more mature that his peers, and he liked older guys.

This is when I asked him how old he was.

18.

WHAT!  "Shit, your ARE 18, right?  You're not underage???!!"

He saw the panic in my face, and quicly tried to calm my fear.  "No, really, I'm 18, here, I'll prove it, I'll show you my driver's license......."

I settled down and continued the drive to the airport.

At the curb, the kid thanked me again, saying he was completely drained and couldn't' wait to get some sleep.

I thanked him as well for a super fun time, and told him to look me up again if he found himself at the airport with some time to kill.

Dude 464, I suck off Super Hottie in the car

Fresh meat syndrome.  Again.

I had to go to a different part of town, to drop off something.  As usual, I turned Grindr on and changed my screen name from "DL & Discreet" to "Down for Oral."

I was horny and wanted to get some head as well.

Then, my old suck buddy texted me.  We haven't been together since I met the Amigo.  He was going to suck me off at noon.

Yee haw!  He loves to get me off.

Well, shortly after that, I got about three messages on Grindr, but the best one said:
"Young guy, looking for oral." and he send me a cock pick and a body pic.

Nice.

He asked for a face and I sent him one.  He complimented me and sent me his.  He was a nice looking guy.

Neither of us could host, but he agreed to a bj in the car.  That's cool.

I drove out of the neighborhood I was in, and there was a small office complex nearby, with a parking lot hidden to the road, and pretty well concealed from the neighbors as well.

I sent him the address, and he said he would be there in 10 min.

Well, his picture did not do him justice!  He was handsome as fuck, like a young Tom Cruise in Risky business, except long beautiful eyelashes.

He parked his car, and hopped out and waved as if we were old friends, then comfortably sat in the passenger seat of my Jetta.

We said hi, and I told him how handsome he was, and he returned the compliment, calling me "Sir."

How polite.

I said, "Let's get to it then" and he pulled down his pants, revealing a most beautiful 7" cock.  And as a bonus, it was pretty natural, with medium brown pubes that I could not get enough of.  Why does a guys pubic region turn me on so much?  Unless it's shaved of course.  YUK.

Well, I sucked for a few minutes and the kid was very vocal.  He was moaning and cooing and grabbing my ass.  I was grabbing his tight little butt too!  Just the right amount of hair.

He moaned that I should let him reciprocate, and I thought "what the hell" so I let him have a couple minutes sucking, but not too long.  I was there to get him off, and dang, I was happy to get back to his dick.

I said "I hope you're going to cum in my mouth......"

"I'd be happy to, Sir." was his reply.

Suck, suck, suck.  He'd gone a little soft in the short absence from my mouth, but that soon changed.  I sucked for maybe 5 minutes when he told me he was going to cum, and I could feel him squirt onto my tongue and into the back of my mouth.

I savored it, and kept sucking him until he quit squirming and started to deflate.  Then I tasted it fully before swallowing, and cleaned off is dick.

I strared at it and marveled, and complimented him on it.  Then I asked if I could take a picture with my phone, and he obliged.

When I was finished, he thanked me, and called me Sir again, then skipped out of my car and back to his own.

I wouldn't mind starting every day with a little treat like that.

Conflict

I've been wanting to write about this for a long time.

I guess the time is right.

It's the conflict I feel when looking for a hookup.  Conflict because I know The Amigo would not like it.  

So, if I know it's wrong, why do I still do it?  How do I keep justifying it?  I have a boyfriend now, and still I enjoy the random hookup and the ocasional BJs from Regulars.

Rhetorical questions of course.  I can't expect an answer from my readers, it's got to come from within.  

But, this blog has helped me process my journey, and so maybe it will help me find some comfortable ground to stand on.

An update on the Amigo and me.

We are still together.  Not as much as the summer, when I was working less, and he didn't have classes, but still he comes on the weekends, and we spend Friday, Saturday and Sunday nights together.

We mostly do stay-at-home stuff.  We watch Netflix, cuddle, go to sleep together.  We copulate Saturday and Sunday mornings, then shower together.  Sometimes we eat out.  Sunday breakfast is a favorite.  Usually with my Mom, if she's in town.

Yesterday was The Amigo's birthday.  He turned 45 (although he could easily pass for 35).  He was at school, and I was at work.  I wasn't sure when I would be returning from a work project out of town, and The Amigo was dealing with some responsibilities at school.

He couldn't come and spend the night with me.  I didn't get to fall asleep spooning him, and I didn't wake up next to him, clutching me and trying to prohibit me from leaving the bed.  I won't look at porn, take my Viagra, then go in and wake him and fuck him, telling him that he "doesn't have an option."

Instead, I have the morning to myself.  To contemplate why I still crave the hookup when I'm horny.  I tell myself that The Amigo fulfills all of my emotional and relationship needs, but I still have that one area of my sexual appetite that he doesn't quite fullfill.

Before The Amigo came into my life, when finding a hookup was my number one recreational outlet, I used to rebuff anyone who was in a (gay) relationship, and looking for sex on the side.  If you are in a relationship, you should have sex with your partner, right?

Well, now it looks like I'm having a great big buffet consisting of crow and humble pie.

Dude 464? or was it a repeat?

Okay.  It was a repeat.

Which means I need to take back the number 464 and assign it to the next random dude.

I did just get a mediocre BJ from a super hot young guy.

He is actually Dude 389.

His Grindr profile said simply "Discreet."

There was no photo.  No Age. No height. No weight.

I think I might have messaged him first, but he took hours to respond back.  He sent me his pic and asked for mine.  I sent him a face pic (something I'm less hesitant to do these days) and then a dick pic.

His next question was whether I wanted to come over to his place and get "serviced" by him.

Hell Yes!

I didn't recognize him from his photo, but once I got to his place and saw him in person, I was pretty sure I had been with this guy before.

I didn't mention it, and neither did he.

He led me to the spare bedroom aka computer room/office/art room/sewing room and he knelt before me.  He was a super cute kid, with a killer build and soft spoken polite demeanor.  He undid my jeans and slid them to my knees, then pulled down my boxers.

I was totally soft, and I must admit, a little small looking.

He gave a truly delicate BJ with little suction or tongue action, but he did bring me to full mast in a minute or two.

I pulled my pants and boxers down, and off one leg to allow me to widen my stance, then asked if he minded that I sit on his computer chair.  He said fine.

Quickly he resumed his almost suctionless BJ, and his technique was to bob up and down, super fast.

Frankly, I prefer a slow, very slow head bob, with lots of tongue and plenty of suction, but this time I didn't verbalize my preference, and just watched as the blond twink worked hard bobbing my knob.

I crested a few minutes later and gasped that I was cumming, as I unloaded my wad into the boy's mouth.  We had discussed him "sucking to completion" so he took it, but I'm not sure he really wanted it.

I held his head down on my prick until my orgasm was fully enjoyed, and then let him loose.  He pulled off, looked at me and then swallowed, and I panted and recovered.  With my deflating cock in his thin twink fingers, another pearl of cum appeared from the pee hole, and he correctly bent down and licked up the last drop.

Good boy.

I didn't want to deal with that anyway.

As I was getting myself together, and doing up my pants, I brought up the subject of our meeting before.  He looked like a deer in the headlights.  He could recall living near where I had picked him up.  I reminded him of the conversation we had about his trip to Guadalajara Mexico.  He said he had been there, yes, but didn't remember me or the conversation.

As I drove away, I messaged him on Grindr, thanking him and recounted another detail of our previous conversation.

His response, was simply "Thanks for Cumming."

I was not 100% sure it was the same kid, until writing this entry in my blog.  It forced me to go through past entries, and look at the photos.  Sure enough, same tattoo on his abdomen.

Dude 463. Fresh Meet

I was running errands for work, by myself in another city, a half hour to the south.  A city famous for hot young Mormon boys.  It's always my hope that one of these curious boys will seek out a mature discreet man to introduce them to the heavenly, yet earthly pleasures of oral sex.

It hasn't happened yet.

However, I was picking up some things from an unmanned warehouse, when my Grindr went Brrreep!

I started chatting this kid up, who didn't have much info on his profile.  He said he was "just chillin" and I offered him a blow job.

He asked for a face pic, and so I sent one.

To my surprise, he didn't disappear, and said that sounded good.

He was less than a mile away, and I had to pick him up.  Luckily he agreed to come back to the warehouse and do the deed.

He sent me his location and asked that I please not pull up in front of the house, but nearby was a Subway Sandwich shop, so I pulled into the parking lot.  The kid found me a few minutes later, and hopped in the passenger seat.

The 5 minute car ride back to the warehouse was a little awkward, but we made some small talk and I nervously unlocked the warehouse door, and we went inside.  I locked the door behind us, and found a folding chair and offered him a seat.

He said he didn't mind standing, so I dropped to my knees.

Okay, maybe it wasn't
THIS big....

I let out an audible gasp, when I reached for his waistband, and found a couple inches of protruding, and leaking cock, sticking out from the top of his pants!
  Wow.  What a cock.  Probably 8 inches, perfectly shaped and a perfect nest of hair.  I get a little hard, just remembering the smell.

I pulled down his pants and started making love to that beautiful boy cock.

The kid fully participated, grabbing my head, arms and shoulders throughout the blowjob.  Even though I couldn't fit even half of it in my mouth, he enjoyed it.  It also gave me plenty to hold onto, when I wasn't playing with his medium sized nuts, or grabbing his tight little ass.

In only five minutes, he doubled over, and pulled out of my mouth, gasping, saying, that was a close call, because he was just about to cum.

I urged him to sit, and he complied, and then I hungrily went back down on his delicious cock.

Less than a minute later, he said "I'm sorry man......I'm about to cum again....."

I just moaned and said "um hmmmm" and kept sucking.  

Soon his breathing changed, and he tried to tell me again that he was going to cum, but only half the phrase came out, as his orgasm swept over him and shut down his speech.

Boom.  I felt the jets going into my throat, and bobbed to catch some on my tongue.  I gently coaxed as much out of his pulsing cock as I could, as the kid just lay back and let it happen.

I swallowed it all and cleaned his softening dick as best as I could, before getting up from my knees and heading to the bathroom to wash my hands and compose my self.  This included putting my boner back in my jeans.

I took the kid back to his neighborhood, and he thanked me and hopped out of the car.  I messaged him on Grindr......"that was hot, thanks." but heard nothing back.  At least he didnt' block me so maybe if I get back to that area, we can do it again.


This is just an amateur porn video I found online, and it isn't the kid I sucked off, but it's a pretty good representation of face, body, cock and the intensity of his orgasm:

Dude 462, another young man and I trade oral

I was working up in Park City today.  I would occasionally turn on Grindr, but no one really seemed interested.  I got a couple hits, but nothing worth going out of my way for.

Back in Salt Lake, a block from my house is a grocery store, and I stopped there to get a few things and that's when  a faceless profile sent me a message..."Want a quickie?"

This was quickly followed by receiving a face pic of young man who, according to grindr, was only 1200 feet away.

Our conversation was very short, and he never asked for a pic or any more stats that were on my profile.

He quickly biked over to my location on a side street and  pulled up alongside my car.  We said hi, and I asked him if he would mind going to the end of the street, as it dead ended at a small park.  He agreed.

I parked, he lay down his bike and got in the passenger seat.

I was a little wary of his age, and this may be some sort of sting, so I said, we never talked about "who wold give and who would receive."

He hesitated, looked thoughtful for a moment and said, that he would give.  First.

Again, fearing that I might expose my junk inappropriately, I asked if I could see his first.  I figured if he was some sort of cop, he wouldn't do it, but he didn't hesitate pulling down his nylon shorts showing me his nice semi hard uncut cock.

I followed, and soon he was giving me a nice BJ.

This was not the kid's first time either, and soon he was putting my hand on his cock, so I could jack him off as he sucked me.

This went on for a few minutes and I was pretty excited and feared cumming too quick, so I pulled him off my dick and went down on him.  It was a good size for sucking, and then he asked me if I was a bottom.

No.  How about you?

No.  (not that I had any interest in anal sex anyway)

I continued to suck him and he started probing my ass, with his finger.  I didn't mind, and it was kind of a turn on until he got a little aggressive and I as I was sucking was able to utter "um no."  He said okay, and pulled his naughty little fingers out of my pants.

It didn't take long when he told me he was getting close, an "where do you want me to cum?"

I paused briefly to tell him then decided to just let him know non verbally, and continued the blow job.

"In your mouth?" he asked.

"Ummmm Hummm." I said and I persevered.

And then he let loose right then.

He did not cum a lot, nor did he give much other indication that he had orgasmed, but there was an undeniable teaspoon of cum in my mouth.  I milked his orgasm until his young cock started to deflate, and then pulled off and tasted my sticky reward.

We thanked each other, and he pulled up his shorts and hopped out of the car.

I hope he hits me up again.  I wouldn't mind seeing the rest of his body in the light of day sometime.

Dude 461, I suck off another kid in the mall parking lot

So, my hooking up has slowed w-a-y down since my pre boyfriend days, but hey, I'm only human and I have needs.

Okay.  Not "needs" but desires.  Carnal desires.

Last week I found myself working in a nearby town.  A college town.  This means that I'm "new meat" on Grindr, and it also means college cock.  Couple that with the conservative nature of this particular town, and I was hoping to encounter frustrated closeted boys to seek out an experienced, discreet cocksucker like myself.

I was a little disappointed. However, I did get the opportunity to blow a nice young man in the parking lot of the local shopping mall.

I'm not sure why he was there, I doubt he was a student.  Perhaps he was the son of a visiting professor, or his family was checking out the college for him, or a sibling.

I was in a rented cube truck, and on my lunch break at Burger King when the kid saw me on Grindr, an I was close.  He asked if I could come the the mall and "hang out."

Now why a 22 year old kid would want to "hang out" with a 53 year old "discreet" guy, is a mystery. I declined his offer saying I was working, but if he wanted to quickly "trade some oral" in the back of the truck I would be down.

He accepted my offer, so I gulped down my fillet-o-fish and drove a couple blocks to the mall parking lot.

It didn't take him too long to find my truck and we jumped in the back.  The springs on the roll up door were pretty strong, and the door wouldn't stay down, but once inside, I fixed it with a rubber bungee strap, which let the door open just a few inches, for light.  Fortunately, there was a couch inside, we could use, covered with furniture blankets.

I asked the kid to see his dick and he didn't hesitate to pull down his pants revealing a nice 7" dick, in a next of untrimmed black pubes. Although uncut, his bullet shaped head was protruding from it's turtleneck skin.  I didn't need to be asked and just went down on his hardening meat.  It stiffened intermediately to maximum firmness, and the kid got surprisingly aggressive and forced my head down on his long dick, making me choke and gag a little.

Usually kids these days aren't so disrespectful with their elders!

I blew him for a few minutes and several times he forced my head down.  I tried to go with it, but I'm not exactly experienced in the art of deep throating, and each time I had to pull my impaled face from his pole to keep from choking.

This action did serve to get my dick rock hard in my work jeans, and I stood and opened my pants to relieve the pressure.  The kid made no move toward my hard dick so I asked him if he sucked cock.  He nodded and then took me in his mouth.  It wasn't his first time, and felt great.  So great that it didn't take long before I thought I might blow, so I removed him from his task and got on my knees again to finish what I had started.

Again the kid was surprisingly aggressive, and it only took a couple minutes before he was blowing his wad down my throat.  I did pull back a bit, so I could get some in my mouth to taste, but the majority went down my throat.

I was satisfied, and he made no effort to return the favor, that that was okay with me.  I found a roll of paper towels, and we both cleaned up before parting ways.  Him skipping back to the mall, and me driving to my next pick up.

Dude 460. Hot 20 year old otter feeds me his dick

I've got a bad habit of turning on Grindr, just to see if there's any hot youngsters around that want me to suck them off.

It hasn't really been that suck-cess-ful, but on two ocasions recently, it's been very, very good.

This 20-year-old hottie, with a trim lean body had been chatting me up.  He was more chat than action, so I didn't think he would actually come over, but that's exactly what he did!

He was bookishly handsome and his full beard and hairy body would lead me to believe he was older than twenty, but his nervous boyish nature was spot on.

He came in and we had some minimal chit-chat, before I asked to see his dick.  He fumbled with his pants and underwear, and out plopped a nice 4 inch soft dick, perfectly shaped, and perfectly nested in a perfect mound of perfectly trimmed, yet still bushy pubes!

He smelled fresh and clean, and it took no time at all until his cock became huge.  At least 7" and probably 8" !

I could only take half of it in my mouth comfortably, although it was fun to make myself a little uncomfortable a couple times.

He took longer to cum than I expected, and I did have to use plenty of hand along with my mouth, but he told me what I was doing right, and I sped things up again, and soon enough, I felt a powerful jet hit the back of my throat, and his amazing cock pumped out a nice amount of somewhat bitter jizz.  Not so bitter that I didn't savor it a bit before swallowing mind you.

The kid was stuffing his deflating dick back in his boxer breifs, before I could offer him a towel to clean up with.  He buttoned up his blue jeans, and refastened his belt around his narrow waist.

We had another minute of chit chat and I told him to come back anytime, and he thanked me and skipped out the door.

He doesn't live but a few minutes from here, and he's from a small rural town nearby and doesn't know many folks here, so I hope he takes me up on my offer.

Yummy.

He sent me this pic

Not his actual dick, but a good representation

 

Weeks later he updated his
profile pic on Grindr

Once we were chatting.  Too little time
to hook up again so he told me he was
jacking off, and I asked for a pic.

Dude 459. Young, hot cock

Grindr is generally a huge waste to time, but every once in a while, something unrealistic comes to fruition.

I turned Grindr on, and just went about my business.  My newest profile doesn't really beat around the bush.  " I like to giver oral to young fit guys"

How can that be misconstrued?

Generally it's not, which is why generally no one hits me up, and no one ever responds back when I hit them up.

However......

On this particular friday afternoon, I got the following message and photo, totally unsolicited:

Here is the full cock shot:


Well hell!  I want that in my mouth!

The kid was a bit flaky, telling me first he was up by the Capitol.  It's a short drive, but I hopped in my car, and once in the area, the changed his mind and said he was by "Liberty Park."

I tried to confirm the coordinates, and realized he was at ANOTHER park.  Not called Liberty and not even in the area.  Fortunately for me, it's a park I know well, and it's only blocks from my house!

I drove back and found him sitting on a picnic table, next to concrete block restrooms.  He was on his phone, and I knew it was him.  I messaged him, and let him know it was me sitting in the car right in front of him.

"Go in the bathroom" he messaged.

Uuugh.  Not my cup of tea, but okay.

I went in, passing the kid on the way.  He never made eye contact or acknowledged me in any way.  Once inside, I messaged him.   I waited a minute, and nothing happened.  I messaged him again.  "you coming?"

"Yeah." he messaged right back.

Again, I wanted a minute or so.  The kid was only steps away from the door, what the hell was the problem.

Fearing some kind of police "lewdness" sting, I walked out and returned to my car.

As I got in the car, I saw the kid get up.  He looked at me then went in the bathroom.  As luck would have it, a woman was headed to the building as well, so I waited for her to go into the women's side before I got out of the car, and went back to the men's side.

Just as I was entering, the kid was coming out, but I intercepted him and wispered "you want to do this or what?"

He didn't say a thing, but went back inside with me and locked the door.  He never said one word, but undid his pants and out flopped the most beautiful 7-inch semi flacid boy dick you'd eve seen.  Just perfect.

I went down on him like a starving refugee.

I had the video on my iPhone going, but my shirt covered the lens so the video ened up being useless.  I did however record that the entire incident too 3 minutes and 26 seconds, from leaving the car, to sucking his cock, to him cumming in my mouth, and me returning to the car to take a selfie of my milk filled mouth!

Now, if only I could have 3 minutes and 26 seconds of that every day, I'd gladly find the time somehow.

Dude 458. Still craving it.

Dang.  The more I get the more I want.

I posted on CL today, as a job cancelled and I had an unexpected free day.

All his response said was that he was a 29 year old male.  Of course that's too little info to invite someone over, but this guy used his real name in his e-mail and even though Craigslist responses come back anyomized, his name was there, and a quick check of his facebook page, deemed him "suckable."

He showed up and he was about 5'6, 180.  A little chubbier than I like, but I knew he would be by his facebook pics, so no surprise.

What did surprise me is his stubby dick.  Facebook didn't mention anything about that.

Now, I'm no size queen.  I don't have a big dick myself, but when I saw the nub, I was wondering how all this would work.  But I'm up for new things, so I just went for it.

It took a few minutes but the 1/2" nub erected itself into a solid 4 or 5 incher.  Plenty to work with.  There were weird little bumps all over it, like little grains of sand.  I had to ask him if it was warts, and he replied it was  Papules.

I took his word for it, and while I had no Idea what Papules were, I continued with the BJ.

After about 10-15 minutes, the inevatable happened and I let him cum in my mouth.  For some reason, I did't swallow, and instead spit into the handy terrycloth towel, which was standing by.

We thanked each other and he fled.

A word to all of you doing the dirty on the DL.  If you don't want your identity looked up, the keep your real name out of your e-mail address, even when replying to Craigslist.

Not his dick, but a perfect resemblance

Dude 457. Finally, someone agrees to let me suck them off.

If someone told me 10 years ago, there would be 10 cock suckers lined up to suck every available dick, I would not have believed you.  All I could think about was getting a BJ from another guy.

For a very long time now, I have craved a dick in my mouth.  Not just any dick, but the dick of an average or fit guy, one that's not shaved like a 90s porn star either.  Bonus points for being young.

Well, I figured if I hit up all the guys on Grindr, with "Want a BJ?" that sooner or later I would gets a taker.

I was (and still am) wrong.

I had to travel up north to buy something at the Army Surplus store.  I always turn on Grindr when traveling to a new area, mostly for entertainment purposes.  But at every stop along the way, I would hit up the young fit handsome lads, and ask them if they wanted head.

I got very few responses back (not that I thought I would.  Ignoring someone seems to be the politest of all possible responses) but the few that did respond back were not interested.  One guy said maybe, but then asked for a face pic.  And when I sent it, I got ghosted.  But then again, I was not surprised.

Then, out of the blue, I got a message from a younger fit guy.  After a couple of pleasantries, he sent me a pic of his dick.  I thought it had a weirdly angle helmet on the end, but it wasn't so misshapen that I reeled back or anything.

He wanted head, and wanted to sucke me too, which I politely declined, and we made plans to meet.

He was already parked at a location near my next stop, just off the two-lane highway.

I found him in his car, and he transfered into my passenger seat.  We exchanged pleanantries, and then I asked to see his dick.

He pulled down his jeans and purple fashion undies to reveal a dick about the same size as mine, but a bit thinner, and with it's dowager's hump head.

He smelled clean and fresh, and I relished this opportunity.  He was limp to start off with and then came to full mast with some encouragement with my mouth.  He gave good verbal cues as to what he liked, and even pumped my mouth a little.

It took about ten minutes and then his breathing began to be labored, and he tried to speak to let me know he was close, and finally his dick got rock hard, spasmed and he pushed his cum into my mouth.

It wasn't a lot, and I had no trouble swallowing it, and then trying to gently coax just a little more from his spasming body, as I cleaned up his dick with my lips and tongue.

I was hard as a rock myself, and leaking pre cum too, but that subsided.

The kid quickly pulled up his undies and jeans, and hopped out of the car, thanking me profusely.

I felt like a dirty old man, sucking off this guy in a dirt parking lot behind some trees, but that didn't bother me either.  I just wish the feeling of satisfaction had stayed with me longer.  30 minutes later, I was ready to do it again!