Just checking in.

Things are going pretty well.  I'm in a work lull, and have some free time.  The amigo has spent every night, except a couple at my house, for two months.  3 1/2 weeks he was here alone, watching my house while I was gone on vacation, and that was very helpful.  Especially when the wind blew down a giant tree branch in the back yard, and without any encouragement from me, he found a hand saw in the shed, and cleaned it all up, except for the 300 lb limb that he couldn't move by himself.

Amigo pointed out that it's been 9 months since we had our first weekend together.  Wow.  I don't think I saw that coming.  I'm still enjoying his company.  We don't have a ton in common, but I like his positive attitude, his playful spirit, and his laugh.   Before the vacation and since my return, we've spent a lot of time together, as he's taking a summer break from classes, and I have no work project at present.  This will change soon enough, as I have a weighty work project threatening to rear it's ugly head, in a couple of weeks.  Until then, lots of falling asleep together, and waking up together and fixing dinner together.  A couple of simple pleasures that have escaped me until the Amigo entered the picture.

I'm still struggling with the occasional hookup.  I still want to (hookup).  Badly.

I know the amigo would not be happy about it.  I justify it though.

I haven't topped anyone else since meeting him.  That leaves the random BJ here and there, and it's mostly regulars, whom I've known a while.  I did get airport head in Philly, while returning from vacation.  2 days later it was a 19 year old kid who blew me once before, and yesterday it was the super hot 40-year-old guy, who just happened to have another super hot 40-year-old guy, that he was blowing at the same time.

So, that's my story.  I'm pretty happy and content.  I continue to be amazed at my transformation.

Another thing my eyes have been opened to is the open relationship.  I used to not hook up with guys that were partnered.  If a guy was married to a woman, and getting with other guys on the side, that didn't bother me.  I would justify it because they couldn't get cock from their wives anyway.  But hooking up with another partnered gay dude seemed somehow not right for me.

Now I get it.

Now I understand how someone can complete me romantically, but not really satisfy my sexual appetite.  So, I guess I need to apologize to all the guys I turned down in the past, because I failed to be open minded enough to understand their predicament.  I also have to commend anyone on the hard work it takes to be faithful, if the relationship requires it.  I'm not sure I'll ever get there.

That's all I have from this side of the blog.  As usual, I'll update with any important news, and try to keep true to myself by posting any hookups with new guys.  I guess it's become sort of my penance theses days, as I'm no longer very proud of the conquests, and sometimes feel downright ashamed.