6 years ago that I had my first Craig's List encounter with another guy, that started me down this crazy path. After decades of near celibacy, I got a blow job, sucked a dick and had my ass eaten, and tasted the addictive drug know as the "anonymous hook-up."
Or, so I thought. I look back to the beginning of this blog, and realized that the date was a little off. Then I remembered that I started this blog two years after my first encounter. I had written about it to a friend, and in my diary of sorts, but not made it public until two years later, in 2011.
So, I went back through my old e-mails. Sure enough, there was documentation of the encounter, but apparently it happened on January 29, 2009, not February 1, 2009 so I'm still off.
As my memory fails, I'm happier than ever to have this blog. I've had some crazy times indeed!
Now, things have settled down.
Amigo is still by my side.
I'm not sure what he's worked out as far as his financial or immigration problems. We talked about it a little yesterday, but he then changed the subject. I think, like me, he's avoiding the problem and enjoying the moment where we can be together.
And it appears we are still together.
It's hard for my icy cold heart to admit, but I grow fonder of Amigo, each weekend we spend together. Last weekend for example, the new bigger bed arrived. No longer are two grown men forced to sleep together on a full size mattress, but have the luxury of a nice queen size. It really doesn't change anything for me though. I'm still pushed up to the cliff edge of the bed as Amigo in his unconscious sleepy state, inches closer and closer, cuddle cuddle cuddle, until I'm almost off the edge. I like it.
And, almost every night we are together, watching a DVD or Netflix on the couch, and Amigo absolutely cannot stay awake. He always falls asleep on my shoulder or on my chest. The two exceptions; Watching "Sex Tape" on DVD, and watching a penguin documentary on PBS. I have no idea what the correlation is.
So, in 6 years I went from closeted porn watching confused middle aged single guy, to still confused still middle aged, but out to the parents and sister boyfriend guy. I still have trouble saying the word "gay" but I guess, if the shoe fits.........
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| The Amigo and I at Sundance in Park City |
Jack, I have been a reader for several years. You are growing stronger and braver with your willingness to expand your physical and emotional experiences. Good luck with your new life and keep us up to date even if it is less varied.
ReplyDeleteHi Jack,
ReplyDeleteI too started to hook up with guys back in 2009. I don't know the exact day, but know the event as it was on one of my business trips. I remember finding the guy, Mike, on Craigslist. I told him it was my first time and he went through and showed me everything I wanted and more. Business trips were the easiest for me at first and I wonder why I didn't think of it earlier! International trips were good too, but harder to make it work. I need to try something in addition to CL, but have to think about it. I want to be careful with apps on my phone.
Well, happy 6th anna. Have fun with Amigo and I hope you find what you want. My blog is nexusdodger.blogspot.com and I also started that around the same time as you. Would you consider putting me on your blog list?
Roger
Funny! In our bed, I am the cuddler and my partner is the one pushed to the edge of the bed. I suspect there is one in every relationship. I wonder what each role means!
ReplyDeleteI'm glad you're happy together.