Dude 445, what the fuck is wrong with me?

Okay. Something is wrong with me.   I'm not so proud that I can't admit it.

This post has two components to it. The hook up, which was actually mediocre, and the other component, which is what the fuck is wrong with me?

I am still having trouble achieving orgasm with the amigo.  The weird thing is, it's about the best sex I have ever had!

Amigo's blowjobs are a definite 10.  He doesn't love sucking me off, but he knows that I love it and he gives it his all.  And it's pretty damn good, up there with the top 10%.  If the stimulation is so great? Why do I not always orgasm?

I do however come more often with his blowjobs, then I do with backdoor penetration.
The blowjob success ratio is about 65%, however, when I top the amigo, I'm operating at about a 10% success rate, if that.

Again, I do not know why.  He has totally relaxed, and screwing him in the ass feels better than just about anything in the world.  He loves it too, and doesn't hesitate to show it.

Why then, does my dick go limp usually?  And to make matters worse, if I take my little blue pill, I stay plenty hard enough, and I get to screw for a long, long time, until I'm exhausted.  The poor Amigo loves it.........for a while.  But even he must get tired of it.

Lately, my hands have always been cold.  The amigo is a furnace, so my favorite thing to do is put my cold hands around his neck, Or other body parts.

He absolutely hates it, and always recoils, asking me why I am so mean to him.  Of course I find this absolutely hilarious and it just encourages me more.  It's like tickling his feet, it drives him absolutely berserk. And now, I can't walk by his socked foot without being instantly attracted to it and wanting to tickle it!  Usually I resist, but I know he is watching me waiting for the attack.

Oh yes, back to the cold hands. I was wondering if my constantly cold hands, and erectile dysfunction, where a symptom of poor circulation.  Also, I must say I have a little less libido.

Now last fall, I was going to see the urologist. This was a result of drippy dick syndrome, and no one could figure out why.  I never did find out.  I think it was an urinary tract infection. I think I got it from fucking some kid in the ass, without a condom.

The urologist was quite concerned about my low testosterone from my blood test results, although I had absolutely no other symptoms, except a slightly raised PSA level.  I had plenty of energy, a high libido, and was not depressed.  I was downright perky for a 52-year-old basically grumpy guy.

My testosterone levels were beginning to bounce back over a couple of months period, and the PSA count dropped and I am supposed to go in for another check up this spring, or summer.

Also, I have noticed that my urine stream isn't very strong.

So, in the back of my mind, I am wondering if I have an enlarged prostate, or even prostate cancer.

Well, it's Friday morning, and I haven't ejaculated since Monday, I think.

I will usually jack off in the mornings, if I have time, but I have sort of held off, thinking the Amigo was going to show up for a sleep over this week.  He hasn't.

So I was feeling a little frisky this morning, and instead of jacking off, I put an ad on Craigslist.

Pretty quickly I got a response from an older married gentleman in a downtown hotel, who offered to suck me off.

I wasn't feeling that horny, and was a little worried about my performance.  I drove to the hotel.

The guy was rushed to check out and said he didn't have much time.  I said I would do my best, but I was not a quick cummer.  He seemed worried.  I was a little worried too.

The Gentleman's long cock.

I took off my shoes, Levi's and boxers, and sat back on the bed, while this gentleman went to work on my soft dick.  At first the blowjob was fairly good with lots of tongue, although it lacked suction.  By now, his pants were around his ankles, and he was jacking his long skinny cock, as he leaned over me and sucked my dick.

I started to inflate, and come to life, and he commented on how nice my dick looked, and asked me to grab his.  I did as he requested and stroked his long skinny cock for a bit and it stiffened.

The gentleman reminded me of this guy

He sucked me for a minute more, and then pulled off, and I told him I thought he was getting me close.

It was true. Even though I had only been in his mouth only a couple of minutes, I could feel my orgasm rising.

He told me that was good, and he wanted to use my cum as lube to jack himself off.

Well he went back to work, and it wasn't the best blowjob like I said, but damn, if I didn't start blasting off only a minute later!

or maybe this guy.

He took most of my wad in his mouth, then stood up, and I could see his cock starting to shoot as well.  He spit my gob into his hand and then stroked himself and ride out his orgasm.

In the meantime, I got up went to the bathroom and got a washcloth and wiped myself off.  I also grabbed a hand towel and threw it to him, as he had spermed all over the hotel sheets.  How rude!

So, here I was, with a total stranger, who wasn't ugly, but not particularly attractive, certainly not as attractive as my amigo!

Next, his blowjob lacked skill.  On a scale of 1 to 10 it was about a three, while the amigo comes in at a very solid 10!

So, obviously my problem is not physical.  I am quite capable of getting hard and coming quick if I need to.

I guess, the first thing is I need to find out what my problem is.  But that is just the start, isn't it?  Simply knowing what the problem is, is not a solution in and of itself.

The amigo thinks it is pornography. I guess it could be. They say porn rewires the brain.

Oddly enough, it's been a topic on our local news.  There's a group running around the public schools teaching the evils of pornography addiction.

As a bit of history, I have always had problems achieving orgasm during coitus.  This happened with my first girlfriend at age 17, and with the other girls I was with in my early 20s.  I always just thought it was because I was more attracted to guys, and the female parts were not arousing enough.

Then, when I fucked my first guy, I didn't come.  Not the second or third either.  I think it was maybe my 6th.  At that time, I thought it must be the condom.  Now that I get to fuck bare, and it feels so great, I know it's something else.

Anyway, if any of you have been through a similar situation, I would love to hear about it.  I looked for some help on the Internet, but it is such a broad problem. I am not sure that any of the specific advice applied to me.

As always, thanks for reading!