Gobble, Gobble.

Again, I'm a little torn by my desire to hookup, and my desire to be faithful to the Amigo.

There was some drama a few weeks ago.  A little disagreement that led to the Amigo not spending the weekend here with me, and giving me the silent treatment for two days.  He also left me a not-so-subtle message by posting on his Facebook page:

" I believe in Love, but I doubt it will ever find me."

Ouch.

I have learned my lesson with the Amigo.  He builds things up in his mind, then reality slaps him in the face, and he over reacts.  A few days later things return to normal.  Kind of like a "market correction" in the stock market.  Over inflated values burst, stocks plummet, then rebound to about the same level.

During this period of silence, I knew the Amigo was reevaluating our relationship, and I took this as justification to look for some "D."

When he returned the following weekend, he acted as if nothing happened, and even my attempts to "talk about it" were brushed aside.

Gay Drama.  Uuuuugh.  I don't wan't it.  Again, the lesson was reinforced.....Don't participate in the drama, and things will work out fine.

Part of my justification for hooking up, is the Amigos lack of enthusiasm, when it comes to oral sex.  Both giving and receiving.   I mean he's not totally unwilling or anything, but I can tell he doesn't love it, like I do.  And....I must admit, he's turned into one great cocksucker.  His BJs feel better than most I've ever had.  Problem is stamina.  They're great for 5, 6, even 7 minutes, then.....he's tired.  He's over it.

Mostly, I ask him to blow me before we have sex, just to get me good and hard, and a little lubed up.  He does enjoy it on those terms.

Then, he surprised me on two weekends ago.  As I undressed for a shower, he came in the bedroom and pushed me to the bed and gave me head!  OMG, it was great.

One problem though.  I wasn't anticipating it, and even though it was great, I didn't cum.  In fact, after 10 minutes or so went by, and his commitment to my organism was obvious, my dick went soft!

Oh man!  If there was ever a time I wanted to reward the Amigo for taking initiative, this was it and my aging body betrayed me!  Grrrrr.

Speaking of body betrayal, I still experience difficulty in achieving orgasm while having sex with the Amigo.  It's downright baffling.  The pleasure on my dick as we fuck is mind blowing.  It's great!  Really, there's nothing like it.  Sometimes I wonder if it's too overwhelming.  Is there something like over-stimulation, over-pleasuring that derails an orgasm?  It's so frustrating!

If I know ahead of time that we are gonna f*ck, I take my 1/4 Viagra, and this allows me to maintain enough of an erection, even after the crucial 10 minute mark.  If I haven't cum in the first ten minutes of penetration, then I pass some arbitrary point, and it's unlikely that I will cum.  That doesn't keep me from trying though.  It all feels great, and sometimes, I do indeed work my self back to an orgasm.  But only sometimes.  Without the Viagra, I usually go soft after the 10 minute mark, and all hope is lost.

Speaking of Viagra, my supply of generic Sildenafil, which came from India, a couple years ago, is almost gone.  The website that I ordered it from has disappeared, and my attempts to locate something trustworthy have been unfruitful.  All the sites seem to want to take me to a Russian Website, and I'm very leery about typing in a credit card number.

Tomorrow I have a routine check up with the urologist.  I'm going to ask him for a prescription. Why not?  I think with my insurance the cost shouldn't be too bad, right?  Besides, I cut the 100 mg pills into quarters anyway.

I guess I strayed.  Back to the hookup dilemma.

So, after the unsolicited BJ attempt, I decided to try and go a week without hooking up.  Without looking at Craigslist or opening Grindr.

It didn't go well.  My will power is weak.

I didn't hookup, but I would have if some young dude had hit me up on Grindr.  I traveled outside my regular routine for work, and could not resist turning on Grindr to try and experience "New Meat Syndrome."  I guess it was fate, because nothing came through.  I did get a few hits from guys closer to my own age, but I turned everyone down, and so in the end, I went the entire week without a single hookup on the side.

This last weekend was pretty good with the Amigo.  We had a great f*ck session Saturday morning, that culminated in two very happy homos.  Sunday did not go quit as well.  I thought I was going to cum again quite quickly, during our morning session, but alas, it was not to be.  Amigo received quite a thorough pounding though, and he thanked me for it.  We are both a little frustrated when I don't cum.  :(

Later around noon, I was looking on the computer (porn) and Amigo was doing something on his laptop (homework) and watching TV.  He noticed the boner in my lounge pants, grabbed it.  This let to a kiss of my dick which led to another blowjob, and ......BOOM!  A huge powerful orgasm.

Whew!  I needed that.

I tried to repay the favor, but my BJ for him deteriorated to a hand job, and finally he took over for himself, as I did my best to help him get off with kissing, nuzzling, nipple play, etc.  Long story short: Amigo shot his wad all over the towel, and himself, and the chair and the floor.  Gee whiz.  Lechero.

So, anyway, that's it for now, except to say I got with this kid again this morning.  Dang hot young kids wanting oral!  So hard to resist!  I won't go into details....except he wanted to 69, and damn if I didn't cum in his mouth while sucking him off.  So hot.

Oddly enough when one searched the web for gay Turkey Sex, one doesn't find many photos.