Dude 488, Mutual Oral

***I wrote this a few weeks ago.  I'm just now posting it.


I've been trying to be a good boy.  The Amigo has discovered my blog.
He's not happy about me still getting some on the side.  I feel bad.  I wish I didn't enjoy the anon hookup so much.  When I met him my intentions were to be totally honest and open.   And, I was.  I told him I had been very promiscuous.  I didn't give a number, and he didn't ask.

Then again, most guy probably don't spreadsheet their hookups and keep count like I do.   I wanted to have the Amigo read my blog.  From the beginning.  To understand how I went from middle aged shy-guy to secret champion bedpost nocher.  As we got to know each other, I realized that maybe his English skills weren't sharp enough to grasp all the subtleties and innuendos of my blog, and so I didn't pursue it.

And it didn't really seem to matter, except I really did want him to know about and accept who I was, who I am, and how I got here.  After all, it's through hooking up, and having fun, that I was able to keep an open mind, to allow for new experiences, to pushing my boundaries, and finally to dating, him in particular, and ultimately coming out.

Grrr.  It's frustrating.  I don't want to hurt the Amigo's feelings anymore, but sometime I just can't help myself.  I'm a horny guy and I want sex.  Several times a week.

And so it was yesterday.  Amigo was overwhelmed with responsibilities and school, and finals, and was too busy for sex.  I have time off, and of course that leads me to trouble.

I finally found a guy on Grindr, who invited me over.  We agreed for it to be mutual oral, although I wish it had been just me blowing him or him blowing me.

In this case, he got each other hot and horny, and he ended up cumming and I did not.

Oh well, that the chance I guess one takes.   What happened to all the hotties that just wanted to blow me.  Perhaps, getting older has something to do with it.