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Friday, January 9, 2015

The Drama Continues. I hope not.

Okay.  I have learned my lesson.  I can't let the drama of others, especially Amigo affect me.

AND, I hope not to blog about it in the future.

However, here's the latest.

Amigo sent me an e-mail, saying he wanted to come over and stay the night and talk face to face.  I had pretty much decided it would probably be best just to end it.  I received some advice from TwoLives,  which you can read in the comments of my last post.

So, then I got a surprise phone call from Amigo.  We had a nice chat, and I started to change my thinking.  I told Amigo he could come see me, and we could sort things out in person, but he wasn't going to spend the night.  He had to go back home.  He had to cut the phone call short as his class was starting, but promised to call afterwards.

He called later and told me he was going to take the train to SLC to come and talk, then would go back home.

I picked him up.  After three weeks, of being apart, I'll have to admit, I found him more handsome that ever.

When we got to the house, we had some dinner, and talked about everything.

I asked him to clarify his e-mailed response to me;

Ok, no problem so this is over. I will start to ask to my friends in (Another Town) and start to go back to the church. I hope the best to you and I will walk alone to next step!!! 

As I suspected, it was a knee jerk response to my rejection of the idea of living together.  He said he was really stressed out and should not have sent it.

We talked about his future plans, and his expectations.  I talked about how I had been holding off or at least cutting down on hooking up because I didn't want to bring anything (STDs) back to him and I let him know I wasn't going to commit to a totally monogamous relationship.

He didn't give me the green light for random hookups or anything, but he didn't say it was off the table if we continue to date.

So, after all of the talking, my heart started to melt a little.  Picture the Grinch, when he saw all the Whos enjoing Christmas.

I told him he should not take the train back.  He should stay the night if he wanted.

He wanted.

Of course.

I took a boner pill and we cuddled on the couch.
Soon enough things heated up on the couch and progressed to the bedroom.  I won't go into details, but the Amigo was totally satisfied, and it felt good to satisfy him.

We returned to the couch and tried to watch "Chasing Amy" on Netflix.  I say tried, because a movie on my couch is like a sleeping pill to the Amigo.

I don't think we have ever made it through a whole movie where he didn't fall asleep in my arms while watching, and last night was no exception.

We had a peaceful snugly night, and then I satisfied the Amigo one more time before getting him to the train station at 6:10 AM so he could return to his job and classes at school.

So, for now, I think that things are back to normal, for me.  He's got some struggles now, and I don't know what his solutions may be, but he's a big boy, and I'm sure he'll figure it out.

I'm sorry that I got caught up in the Drama, and needed to vent/share, but I really do appreciate the support and comments.  I'm going to try and take my own advice and not get caught up in this stuff again, and let the drama pass by for a day or two before I react to it.

Thanks for reading.  Whew.

7 comments:

  1. Go ahead and vent & share. That is one of the great things about being a blogger.
    However you choose to handle this situation, as long as you are comfortable with you choices..then all will be good.

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  2. I agree with QH. But I also support the decision not to share. You have a voice that I'm sure resonates with a lot of your readers in many ways but if you're not getting what you need out of sharing then of course you should feel compelled to. But I do appreciate it when you do. Even if I can't fully empathize, the attempt often shapes my understanding of the world.

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  3. You guys are both doing a good job of just talking like normal people (even though he has communication problems)… I don't consider any of this "drama" at all, honestly, just the kind of stuff you have to deal with when things aren't easy (he has no money, lives far away, you were closeted, etcetc). Drama would be doors slamming, insults, yelling and crying, crazy irrational arguments. This is just life! And you're both handling it just fine, I think. Just enjoy what you can. The time is probably not right for either of you to have a major relationship, but not everything has to be a major relationship. I'm glad you had a nice night together.

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  4. I agree with the guys. I'm glad you can talk about it here. I think you are doing the right thing. Communicating and doing what you think is important.

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  5. You may have to reiterate several times in the coming day, months... that you cannot be a "meal ticket" for Amigo. I'm sure that is not his intention, but it will seem like it as he struggles to solve his own problems. Be a kind ear for him and a shoulder to cry on. Keep finances separate and if living together is not what you desire at this point, make yourself clear. Your relationship is growing. You are both learning. You'll know what is right for you. You've done well so far. - I also agree with the other comments I've read here. We read what you write and enjoy hearing how things are going for you. If you want to vent and share with your readers, don't feel like you need to hold back. This is your life! You are living it!

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  6. Add me to the chorus of readers above who respect your privacy but love it when you use your blog to share or even vent. I also agree that it probably would be wise to err on the side of caution in the days and weeks to come. Speaking as someone who used to be (emotionally) on the Amigo side of this equation, I can assure you that when a breakup has been narrowly averted, the Amigo partner has a natural tendency to start testing boundaries almost immediately. I'm not saying it's going to be impossible for you two to enjoy each other's company, at least over the short term, but you'll want to stay alert to signs that he is drifting back into what you indicate is probably an unlikely relationship fantasy on his part.

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    1. Thanks everyone for the great responses. I am especially curious about your response John, being the "Amigo" guy in the past. Sometimes we fight for things if we think they are being withdrawn, even if we don't really want them. Is that what your are saying?

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