Growing. Learning. Dude 449.

I used to draw the line with my hookups.

I refused to hookup with a gay dude, if he was "partnered".

I figured that messing around with a married dude (married to a woman) at least I was providing something that the wife couldn't physically provide; my penis.  My masculinity.  My (faulty) reasoning was, if you're already with a guy, then why seek out another?

That was all before I had entered into a relationship of my own.

I guess I'll climb down from my high horse now, and eat my serving of crow.

I now know how it can be.  To want my cake and eat it too. (that's a weird saying.)

So, all week long I've been getting head, and giving it as well.
On Sunday, it was the 19 year old twink.
On Monday, I had a repeat encounter with the 40 year old hot trophy cock-sucker.
On Tuesday, it was a repeat with my businessman buddy from Tucson in his hotel.
On Wednesday, it was the older guy I sucked off in my living room.
On Thursday, it was another random dude from Grindr
And today.....I'm going to give it a rest.

The Amigo has been relentlessly texting me from his Spring Break trip.  Finally yesterday, I sent him a long e-mail and mentioned that he broke up with me the previous weekend, but was acting like it never happened.

He said he DIDN'T break up with me.  He was confused.  He says I'm "his guy".   I know what it really is;  He want's commitment, and I'm not ready to commit.  He pushed me and I didn't push back.

He could leave me and look for someone else, but dang, we enjoy each other.  We like each other, we may even love each other.  It's more comfortable to just keep doing our thing, then when the shit hits the fan and he has to leave the country, we'll figure it out.  Maybe.

So, the Amigo is on his way back to Utah.  He gets in late but want's to spend the weekend with me before going back to his school routine next week.  And that sounds pretty good to me.  I guess I can just go with the flow for now.

And now, to fulfill  my promise to myself, I'll disclose the details of yesterday's hook up.

Not much profile info

A guy hit me on Grindr.  Most of the details were missing from his profile, but he had a handsome face.  I asked the usual "Are you STD free?  HIV neg?  A Smoker" and he responded to my satisfaction, then quizzed me on my status of those same issues.  Something I appreciate.  He also said my cock looked "yummy."

Although we talked about him giving ME a BJ, and also letting ME cum in HIS mouth, once he got here, and in the heat of battle, he asked if I wouldn't mind sucking him off a little too.

Meh, what the hell.  Why not.

For a shorter somewhat tubby guy, he sure had a big dick!  He wanted me to deep throat it, but forget it.  Not the biggest cock I've ever encountered or anything but a solid 7" and thick, and it just wouldn't go in all the way.  I wasn't really into it enough to force it anyway.

He had a handsome face

And then, he wanted face fucking.  This means that I actually have to put some effort into it.  The nerve of the guy!  I complied and soon I was near cumming.

He wanted one more turn of me sucking him, and I again complied, then he blew me to completion....sort of.  I announced my impending ejaculation, and he pulled off and milked me by hand and I watched myself squirt into the terry cloth towel!

The liar.

Then, he wanted to suck my super sensitive leaky dick while he jacked himself off.  Well, I'll not deny anyone their orgasm, so again I capitulated, and soon he added his own load to the towel.

And that was that.  He bailed and I continued with my chores.

Thanks for the relationship advice everyone, with your comments, and your private e-mails.  It's always welcome.  You've been kind with me.  I'm afraid I've been a bit of an ass lately.

I'll keep you posted if anything develops, but I think the Amigo will return and it will be back to normal again.  Boring, but nice normal.