Dudes 207 and 208

Wednesday, July 6, 2011

Yes, today was a two-fer.

I posted on CL this morning.

NSA BJ - m4m (SL VALLEY)

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Date: 2011-07-06, 9:43AM MDT

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looking for a NSA bj today.. looking to give a nsa bj to a bi/str8 guy, or get one today...

I can host for a few hours but mainly looking to travel out... be close in the north valley area.

you be clean, sane, and d/d free. have pics for trading.

Also, let me know if you want to suck or get sucked and if you can host or travel out.

I got a couple responses, and then a guy hits me with a photo of a killer body, and says he just wants head.

Okay, that's cool.

Another guy tells me I have an amazing cock, and he wants to suck me.

Hey, I think I can make this work!

The second guy of course wants to blow me while I'm blowing the first guy, but I tell him no.  The first guy seems a little nervous, and it was a bit of work to make sure he was STD free, non-smoker, etc.  

He also told me he wanted me fully dressed, at least when we meet.

Okay.  I put the second guy on hold and told the first guy to head on over.

Holy Crap.

The guy had a killer body.  He was about 6' tall, and maybe 170 lbs.  No fat at all.  Medium hairy, dressed in slacks, dress shirt and brown Vans.

This is "Handom's" pic, from his 1st response

He came in and quickly flopped out a HUGE cock.  Perfectly shaped!  I approached him and he kind of pushed me down to my knees.  No messing around for this kid!

  He was already pretty hard when he stuffed my mouth with his prick, but it got even harder.  I wanted to play with his balls, so I lowered his slacks while I was chewing his knob.   This revealed a nice set of low hanging balls.

Next, his dress shirt was hanging down obscuring my view, so I undid a few buttons to reveal a nice bush above his dick.  Not a full shrub mind you, but a perfect bush.

Now "Handsome" was a take charge kind of guy, and kept trying to push his big fat cock deep into my throat.  I tried to take it mind you, but you can't teach and old dog new tricks all at once, and his trick of bury the bone (in my throat) was triggering a gag reflex.

Handsome backed off a bit and I continued the BJ at my pace.  Man, he had a big dick!

I thought he might not be interested in anything but getting head, but after awhile he started pawing at me a bit.  Grabbing my head, gripping my shoulders, rubbing my chest.  He even bent down and removed my shirt.

About this time I offered him to sit on the couch, he accepted and removed his shirt at the same time.  More sucking (did I mention it was difficult because of his great big dick?) and  he started pawing me and groping me more.  Pretty soon he wanted to get in my pants.  Of course I let him.  He also took off his pants at this time and even put his legs up on my shoulders.

He was grabbing me and trying to reach down and play with my hard and drippy dick, I can't remember how my head ended up by his neck but I gave him a little nuzzle, and he pushed me back down on his hard pole.

It wasn't long before he pulled me off, and kind of gasped.

"Teeth?" I asked.

"No, I'm gonna cum."

" I WANT you to cum."

"Where do you want me to cum?"

"In my mouth!"

"Good, cause that's where I WANT to cum!"

I got up, now naked, and ran to the laundry room for a towel, but not before almost tripping over my boxers which were shackling my feet.

I returned and chowed down on "Handsome's" still erect cock.

In about a minute he signaled he was gonna cum, and he pushed his dick to the back of my throat and held me still.  I could feel his fat fucking dick pulsing gob after gob in my mouth.  I was almost helpless to give it a little tongue or movement because of his tight grip.

I managed to back off just a little so I could taste it, and then it hit me.  

I had wanted to taste it so badly but once I did, and once I felt the huge gob in my mouth, my desire to swallow fled like a scalded cat.

I threw "Handsome" the BJ towel and quick-stepped to the kitchen sink where I spit out a shot glass sized wad of jizz.

I guess the taste of cum is best when it's just a taste.  A drop or two would be just fine with me!  I don't need a Tsunami!

Anyway...... next came the awkward wiping up and dressing.  I cleaned up at the kitchen the sink while "Handsome" reassembled himself in the living room.  I had to do the naked walk of shame back to the living room to get my clothes.

"Handsome" and I shook hands and he was out the door.

Now, to get MY nut off....

(to be continued)

Where was I?  Oh yah.  Really handsome dude showed up and left, and I invited the next guy to come suck my dick.

The other guy described himself as  6'4" tall blonde blue and 235 with 7+ hard.

He wasn't a bad looking dude.  He was just BIG.  Really too big, although he did NOT have the first guy beat in the cock department.

This guy, I'll call him Frosty, didn't have much of his blond hair left.  Like mine it was mostly grey.  About like mine, thinning on top.  He wore trendy glasses, but he was a foot taller than me and a hundred pounds heaver.

He gave me a pretty lousy blow job, but he was really getting into it.  I've never heard a guy moan so much while GIVING a BJ.  He must have thought the porn cameras were rolling.

We tried me sitting, me standing, me fucking his mouth, and finally so I could be tall enough for him to suck me while he was on his knees, me standing on the sofa!

After almost 15 minutes of trying, I figured out I was not going to cum by him blowing me, so I thought, what the fuck.  What's one more cock to suck?

Aftermath.  Soiled cum blanket

I told him to sit on the couch and I assumed the position between his legs.  I got some hand lotion out and started jacking my junk while sucking Frosty (and thinking about Handsome.)   In just a few minutes Frosty announced his impending orgasm, and I jacked furiously to keep up.

Frosty blew his wad in my mouth, and that feeling plus the taste served as inspiration to bring me to my own orgasm.   It was still a full minute later than Frosty's, so he had to suffer through the sensitive part, all the while I'm jacking my shit, with his cum and cock in my mouth.

It worked though, He verbally expressed his approval of my ejaculation on the blue cum blanket at my knees.

When I was through, I spit out his gob on the blanket next to mine.

Frosty dressed.  I cleaned up.  I had cum, and the party was over.  All that was left to do now is the dirty laundry.  Cum rags and cum blankets.

Another day, another hook up.....or two.

A photo story.

Honest.  He messaged me first.

Dude 206, I suck a big one.

Monday, July 4, 2011

Dude 206
My post this morning on CL: 

Just lay back and let me do the work - m4m (salt flake city)
Date: 2011-07-04, 6:30AM MDT

Looking for guys that just wanna release. U come over kick back and let me blow you until you nut. I'm DDF and HIV- you be too. Looking for this morning. Smaller dics a ++, but all should apply. Send a pic/stats for mine and a reply!



His Response:


Subject: Looking to nut

To: "pers-jxe6x-2476317199@craigslist.org" 
Date: Monday, July 4, 2011, 6:49 AM

Fit, athletic man, 5'9", 155#, 32waist, 8 cut, safe, sane, discrete, healthy 48yo.  Serious and ready.  My pic is attached.  need  some info from you before we do this. 
Thanks. David


Well, the dude did not disappoint.  As you can see in the pic, his dick was pretty big.  I had trouble not letting it touch my back teeth.  Way too big to take it all the way, although I did try.  I had him pumping a load into my mouth in about 10 minutes.  I swished it around, but kind of got grossed out, so I didn't swallow, instead I spit into the handy nearby towel.

I'd do him again, but he never hit me back when I thanked him for coming over.  Oh well.  EZ cum, EZ go

Dude 204 (meh) and Dude 205 hot cyclist.

Dude 204

> feed me - 44 (south jordan-salt lake area)
> Date: 2011-06-28, 8:52AM MDT
> Reply to: pers-v43sc-2466780876@craigslist.org
> [Errors when replying to ads?]
> Looking for hot cock to swallow. I'm 44 6ft 195 cannot host but happy to come to you or meet someplace. Please respond with at least stats and pic if possible in first email. Let's get you off.
>

In a nutshell, I answered the above post, and this dude came over and blew me.  Ahhhh.  It was a great blowjob, but I think the guy was a smoker.  I guess I can overlook that.  He swallowed!






Dude 205

This is really his photo, sans lycra

Wow.  Bingo.  Jackpot.

I had a 37 year old, 5' 10",  160,  hairy chested cyclist ride over on his bike and suck my cock this morning.  I posted on CL, early.  So early in fact the title of my ad was "dawn dick".

He didn't come over until 10:30 AM, well past dawn, but when he did, he delivered!

Excellent aggressive BJ.  Most noticeable was:

He was better looking, and had a better body than the guys in the porn.

He squeezed a drop of pre-cum out of my dick and licked it off the head.

When I came, (cummed?) he impaled himself on my dick, so I was cumming down his throat, at the same time he used his tongue and swallowing muscles to milk almost every drop from my cock, until it was so sensitive I couldn't take it anymore.

This isn't him, but he was this hot!

Finally, when I was going soft, he squeezed out the last little white dollup of jizz, and ate that too.

Afterwords, he was about to get dressed when he saw the porn on TV and asked.  "you mind if I watch this and masturbate?"

"Of course be my guest."

I wasn't horny enough to help out much, but I did lick his nutsack, which was surprisingly not musky, after his bike ride.  He jizzed on his hairy tummy, and cleaned up with the same towel, I had used.

Then we talked about old houses, drank some tap water, and he was on his way.

Great morning BJ.  If it had happened at dawn, it would have been even better!

Dude 203. A mistake.

Thursday, June 23, 2011

Eeeew.  That was gross.  I'm embarrassed.

I hit up this guy on Grindr who said he was sucking cock.  Somehow he talked me into coming to his hotel room where he was to be blindfolded on the bed, ass up, waiting to be fucked.

There was a bit of confusion, and I had to wait quite a while in the hotel lobby while he "cleaned out" but I finally got his room number and there he was.

Beefy fat guy.

I tried and tried, but I couldn't get my dick hard enough to fuck.  Not a word was spoken.

Finally in frustration, I ripped off the condom and started sliding my semi hard cock up and down his butt crack.  Finally it got hard enough and I just pushed it in.  Fucking bare is quite stimulating so I was ready to cum in about 30 seconds, and pulled out and squirted my jizz on his back.

I was in such a hurry to flee, I put my boxers on backwards.  My hands and cock still had lube all over them and I could smell ass.  Yuk.

To top it all off, there were 4 other people in the elevator with me, on the ride back down to the lobby.

Fucking gross.  I'm never going to fuck a big phatt azz again!

YUK!



PS. June 14, 2013.

Of course I have topped a bigger guy again since then, but not many.  Nothing against bigger guys, but my smaller dick just isn't long enough to get past a set of beefy butt cheeks and penetrate deeply.

Also, I've had some real dilemma moments with fucking bare.  One day, you'll hear about the terrible holiday season starting around Thanksgiving and ending shortly after New Years day last year.  One particular episode; the exact same scenario happened to me,  I couldn't get it hard, and I ended up bare, and cumming too quickly.

I was so upset after having done that, I was practically crying.  It's NOT my policy to fuck raw and anonymously.  I know that's dangerous and irresponsible.  And even though I know it, I still slip up.  It's like my friend at bicrossingtheline reports:

"I was hovering just outside myself, watching my actions, hearing what was going on, but from a 3rd person perspective."

It was Christmas Eve 2012,, about noon,  and as I drove home, so frustrated and angry at myself, I decided that I needed to try to remember my feelings, so I could remind myself just how bad I felt.  I recorded a video message to myself.  You can see my red eyes, and the angst in my voice.  It's hard to watch, but a good reminder to myself, not to let my libido win the war against my values.

Stay tuned.

Dude 202, Blowjob, sweet blowjob

Wednesday, June 22, 2011



This is supposed to be how it works.

I post.

A few guys hit me back.

One guy fits the bill, and he gives me the address to his work.


> Subject: Eat Me (Salt Lake City)
> To: pers-t2arn-245608515@craigslist.org
> Date: Wednesday, June 22, 2011, 12:55 PM
> Drop on by. I'm in SSL. I'm 42, 6',
> 7" cut, clean shaven, 190, nice looking eager cock sucker.
> Stats are accurate but no pics to trade. Asap is better.

So what if he doesn't have pics.  6' and 190 is Height Weight Proportionate enough for me.

 I go to his office in South Salt Lake.  Looks like he's some kind of contractor.  He locks the front door, and we go to the back.  Typical small warehouse area, with supplies, a workbench, and a couple of stools.  We both start to get undressed.  He He's got a nice dick, and I fondle it for a bit.  Then I guide him to my cock and he gives me a nice BJ.  Too much nut sack licking for my likes, and he rubs his scruffy face across my dick a few times.  It's more abrasive than I would like, but I suffer it.

I'm getting close to cumming too quick, so I offer to suck him for a bit.  He lets me, but he keeps pulling his dick out of my mouth, and pushing my face down to his nut sack.  When I lick and suck, and especially take one of the eggs in my mouth, he moans with delight.  He's obviously one of those guys I've seen in porn who really get off with oral testiculation.

Unfortunately, this is doing nothing for me.  I want dick.  I go back to his cock, but in less than a minute he prys it again from my mouth, and want nut-sack licking.

Well, that wasn't in the original deal, so I abandon my newly laid cock-sucking plans and plant my naked ass back down on the stool.

He goes back to sucking me.  This time a little too much teeth and a little too

abrasive nuzzling, but I am reaching orgasm in about 5 minutes.  I remember wanting to tell him I was going to cum soon, but I couldn't get my talky parts to work.  Like I had a stroke or something.  Finally I managed to whisper, "I'm going to cum soon." and then just before I let loose, my tongue also let loose and I moaned, "you want my cum?  You're gonna get it, you're gonna get my cum!" and I let loose in his mouth and immediate relief but immediate over-sensitivity too.

"Easy, easy, EASY BUDDDY."  he eased up, and I finished ejaculating.  He swallowed it all.

We dressed, and he unlocked the front door, and then I fled.

Ahhhh.  Love it!

(Photos from Myspace Page)

Dude 201, Cream filled twinkie

So, I'm going to continue to post.  I've already written them, so it's mostly copy and paste, except, the original version has the untouched photographs in it.  After all, only two people had permission to access the original version, me, and my buddy "Brannis."

I have to extract the photos.  Place my strategic dots, paste the text, and re-post the touched up photos.

So, yep.  this took place two years ago and it was one of my favorites.


Monday, June 20, 2011

Well what a way to start off a new 100!  The old one ended with a bang, (so to speak) and this one starts with a banging.  A butt banging to be more specific.

Can you say "cream filled twinkie".  You don't have to, because I will.

Of course it all started with a post I saw on Criagslist:

inexperienced. been a bottom twice. be the practice i need - m4m
Date: 2011-06-20, 2:40AM MDT
Reply to: pers-a8qjc-2450791950@craigslist.org

19. Disease free and hiv-. Looking for someone to give me experience. Must be disease free and hiv-. Latin, Asian, or black a +++
send picture

I figured I had a snowballs chance in hell, but....why not?  I'd give it a shot.  Like I have almost every day for two years now.

Imagine my surprise when this little fucker answers back:

Ooo. Now? Can you bring condoms and lube and whatever?

Um....YES and YES!

So, this kid is new to the Craigslist world, and just gives me his address.

I tell him I just got out of the shower and I'll be there in 35 minutes.  I also give full disclosure, tell him my age, weight, height and send hime some pics,  and he says:  Ok :)

Well, I look up the little dudes myspace page, and I can't believe it.  A little 19 year old blond twink.

I have some difficulty finding his apartment  unit.  He tells me it's unit 202, and every building in the place has a unit 202.  I felt like a dork standing on the porch, knocking on a door, marked 202, with a baby stroller outside.  Luckily no one was home.  I can't imagine what weirdness would have happened if some young DILF answered the door and I would have barged in.

Finally, I e-mailed "Twink" with my cell phone number.  He called and talked me in.

I went into the kids apartment, stunned at this boys small stature.  I don't know how to describe him except "skinny blond twink."  Obviously gay by his mannerisms, he was maybe 5'6" and about 125 lbs.  He brought me to his bedroom and he was clearly nervous.  to be honest, I was a little nervous too!.

I asked him to relax, and told him if anything made him uncomfortable, to let me know.  I had already dropped my shorts and boxers, and I knelt in front of him, and pulled down his basketball shorts.  The little fucker was wearing plaid boxers underneath....my weakness.

I pulled those down and revealed a perfectly shaped smaller cock.  Oh my god, he didn't shave, and had the most beautiful golden brown bush of pubes.  I buried my face in them and nuzzles his flaccid dick and balls.

Then I stood, and pulled his shirt up over his head.  He instinctively raised his arms.  It probably hasn't been that long since his parents undressed him for bed!

I asked him to sit back on the bed, and then I went to town on his dick.  I inhaled it into my mouth.  It was still soft, and he was shivering a little with nervousness.  He settled down a bit, and and stopped shaking, and my dick was getting pretty hard at this point.

I told him to roll over and he obeyed, without a word.  I kissed his back and worked my way down to his beautiful butt.  Despite his natural smoothness, there was some light brown hair around his ass and I nuzzled it.  I am still pretty shy about rimming, but I got pretty close with this kid, and was nuzzling his crack.  By now, my dick was getting really hard.

I found the lube in my pants pocket and poured some on his crack.  Cameron raised up a bit and thrust his ass out, and I worked in a finger.  I could see him brace himself, but he never complained.  As I worked in a finger, and changed it to a thumb, I decided I needed another taste of his cock.

I asked him to roll over onto his back and he complied.  I sucked his now fully erect and rock hard dick as I worked his ass hole.  I know he was loving it and I was too, but I also knew too much of this and he would cum rather quickly.

I rolled him back over, then put the condom on my cock.

"Am I going too fast?" I asked?  

"Not at all!" he said.

This kid wanted to be fucked, and that was good, because I wanted to fuck him.  BAD!

He was on all fours and I tried to get my cock in his hole, but I couldn't seem to find the entrance.  I pushed him down and lay on top of him and this made it easier.  I worked in my dick, and he pushed back with his little blond ass, and the head of my dick popped in.  He gasped and I paused.

A little in-out, in-out and I was working in my dick.  It took a couple minutes but finally he relaxed and I got to slide all the way in.    I could tell he still wasn't relaxed, but like a champ, he didn't complain.

We started getting into a good rythm an he would meet my thrusts and push back.  All of a sudden he things started to feel really good.  He relaxed, but the pressure on my cock was just perfect.  I'm pretty sure he was getting into it too.  Problem was, I was going to cum soon with the perfect storm brewing between his pucker and my dick.

God it was nice, and I just let it happen.  "Oh fuck, you're gonna make me cum" I whispered into his ear, and I let loose in the condom as pushed as deep as I could.   I couldn't help myself as I moved ever so slightly milking my orgasm to the maximum.  I pulled out as I started to deflate, and  pulled the cum filled condom from my dick.

"Fuck man, that was hot.  Did you like it?" I asked

"I didn't get off, but I liked it"  he answered.

"Want me to get you off?" I offered.

"If you wouldn't mind," he responded.

Normally, after I cum I am through, and I just want to bail, but the opportunity to suck this kids beautiful little prick in it's nest of light brownish blond fur was too good to pass up.

I gave the kid the best blowjob I could.  His dick wasn't as hard as before, but it was only two minutes before he dumped his wad in my mouth.  I wasn't really sure he was cumming as he was basically silent, but his scrotum had tightened up in a little ball and I did taste a little something like cum.

Imagine my surprise when I finished to find my self with a whole mouthful of boy-cum, which I spit into the kitchen sink.  It was almost a half a cup!!  How did that huge gob get into my mouth???

Well, some awkward dressing and thank-yous ensued.  I headed down the stairs and out the front door before I realized I left the little bottle of lube in his bedroom.  I returned for it.  (that shit is expensive!)

I don't know if I was really only his third top, but this was certainly fun for me and a great way to start the day.

Cream filled Twinkies for breakfast?  I highly recommend it!!



I'm sure you're wondering if anything more ever happened since.  

Of course not.  

I e-mailed back several times and got only the silent treatment.  But of course, I'm thankful I got even ONE experience with him.

Update. Coffee date.

I think it's time to give up the coffee dates, and just go back to NSA blow jobs.

I thought the guy I was meeting was 37, which is young, but turns out I should have worn my glasses when I looked at his tiny grinrd profile stats.  He's 31.

He's a Mormon guy.  He's had a few boyfriends, and I spent the entire hour or so coffee date, fighting awkward pauses, and then asking him more questions about his life, family, interest, and past boyfriends.

He never asked one question about me or offered up any information, unless I prompted it from him.

My take?

He didn't know I was that old
(although my age, 50 is clearly on my profile), and just plain wasn't interested, or he's one of those boring uninterested, uninteresting guys, that make up so many gay dudes in my town/county/state/country/planet.

I wish he had opted for the blowjob swap instead of the coffee.  At least he was medium handsome.

I'll take boring dull blow job any day over boring dull awkward conversation.

Thanks for the comments!

Thanks everyone for the great comments on my last post.

Now I'm really not sure what to do, but you guys were right.  I need to do it for me.  And I already am.  I still write about each hookup.  It helps me process it, and it's a wonderful tool to refer back to.  Whether I continue to publish them is the question.  If I do, I'll just keep the original dates in them.

I've got a coffee date scheduled for Saturday morning.

A fellow who chatted me up on Grinder, and suggested we meet.  The discussion moved to e-mailing, and he asked what I wanted to do on Saturday.  In my typical diplomatic way, I said we could just get together and suck each other off, (the gay handshake) or have coffee and get to know each other.

He chose the coffee, which is fine by me.

To blog, or not to blog, that is the question.

Seems like every blogger must go through this phase.

Lucy!  You have some es-plane-ing to do!

 Now that I've reached another milepost, I'm going to question it again.  Actually,  I think I've made my mind up, but I think I have some explaining to do.

If you read the very first entry of this blog, I mention that the stories I write are all 100% true, and they are all written directly following the experience.  I just never really mentioned how long of a time gap between when they happened, and when you readers got to read about it.

I had my very first CL hookup, Feb 1, 2009.

I detailed the account in an e-mail, to an internet pen pal, whom I also met on Craigslist.

I started keeping track of every single new guy I had sex with; first on a spreadsheet, with all the contact details I could get, including e-mail address, street address, when provided, phone number when provided, and any other info I could get with a bit of internet detective work.

I though this way, if I caught some terrible STD, I would at least have a list of the guys I had been with.

Hamlet:  To be, or not to be.....

But, the spreadsheet of e-mail addresses and phone numbers seemed inadequate, and my buddy wanted to hear about the encounters, and this is about the time I had read other hook-up blogs, so I started my first blog.

I really enjoyed it, and I enjoyed writing about my encounters, problem was, there was only one person who read it.  One precious reader.

As much as I enjoyed writing about my adventures, and sharing it with my friend, eventually, I became more comfortable allowing others to read it.  Mostly they were the guys I hooked up with.  I gave them the link to my (original) blog.

The problem I discovered, is that no matter how much someone enjoyed reading about my sexual escapades, NOBODY, was interested in reading dozens and dozens of posts in a single sitting, and I found that when I shared the URL with a select few, they would get bored quickly, and that was that.  Still, I really had only the ONE loyal reader.

I googled "Naked Hamlet"
and this popped up!

So, 14 months after my first hook-up, I invented Explorer Jack, and I re-posted my first hook-up story, on this blog.  I decided to dole out the stories with an eyedropper, perhaps one a day, or one every other day, until I got caught up with the present.  That worked pretty well, and I got new readers, and people started  commenting.  The problem was, is that readers kept assuming that the encounters had just happened, and I just kept on letting you guys assume that.

The problem occurred when I was posting a story about a sticky hot sweltering summer day,  when a sweaty hot young man was sucking me off, and in actuality, I was publishing it to this blog in December.

I decided to take a break.  I would either quit publishing the posts to this blog, or, wait for the seasons to catch up with my posts.

Of course the whole time I was still having lots of new hook-up, and still writing about them, and still letting my ONE friend read them.

When the time of year caught up with then next story to be published, exactly two years had passed from the time of the encounter, until the time you read about it.  The latest encounter you read about, Dude #200, blew me on Saturday June 4, 2011, and I re-published it on this blog on Tuesday, June 4, 2013 exactly two years later.

So, That's my confession.

As of today, Thursday, June 6, 2013 I am up to #326.  Yes, in two years, I've managed to hook-up with an additional 126 guys.  I have posts already written about each and every one of them.

I had a particularly rough time around the holidays this past year.  There were bouts of suicide (not mine) and STDs (yes mine)  My mind was spinning and I think blogging helped me make sense of it all, but of course, if I continue this blog, you won't read about it for another year and a half.

Also, now that I've got the hook-up think mastered, I've come to some new conclusions about myself.  I've been opening up myself to the idea of something more long term.  As of this writing, I've actually had two separate guys want multiple sleep overs with me.  Both have ended, one on my terms, and one not on my terms, and I may want to write about those as well.  I've also had a couple of coffee and or lunch dates.  (And come to think of it, the coffee date turned into a regular F-buddy, and turned into a sleepover thing, which turned into kind of a monogamous thing, which lasted less than 24 hours, before I ended it over something really stupid.  Oh, the Drama!)

Finally, I wonder if it's time to start to share more of the personal and/or emotional side of what I'm going through.  You know I am a real person, with more that just hooking up with.  I work, I travel, I deal with issues of aging parents, and all kinds of other stuff, but I have chosen to not really write about  that stuff.  And I'm finally coming to the conclusion that I might actually enjoy being with another man in an intimate and personal relationship.  Gulp, I think I just described "boyfriend."

It sounds really stupid, but I think I finally realized that I've been gay all these years, but not wanting to admit it, has left me closed to the possibility developing that kind of relationship.  I guess I always just thought it would happen with a woman, and it never did (duh!  I feel like such an idiot now) and now there are all of theses guys calling me handsome and shit, and I just don't have the skill sets to take it to the next level.

I really admire bloggers like Buddy Bear, who can open themselves up to us.  I'm just not quite sure that I can do it very well.

So, that's it.  My confession.  My dilemma.

Do you guys (and at least one gal) even want to read about all these hook ups that happened two years ago?  If so, should I just leave in the original dates and seasons?  Should I post one a day and get caught up, or is it more fun to follow along at the original pace...sometimes every day, and sometimes weeks in between.

You can let me know.  Comment if you like, it's easy to do anonymously or you can e-mail, 3Xplor@gmail.com.

Dude 200. Hot, buff football type sucks me off.

Fuck YES!

Number 200 was fucking GREAT,  I couldn't have asked for better!

I posted on Craigslist this morning:

suk my dik? - m4m (slc)

Date:  6:04AM MDT
Reply to: 3Xplor@gmail.com

Isn't there someone out there with 15 minutes to spare, who can work a load out?

Don't bother to reply if:

You smoke cigarettes
You can't do this now, or soon
You are heavy, a little extra okay (no offense, just a personal preference)
You are HIV pos, or have an std (again, nothing personal)
You don't suck to completion (if I wanted a hand job, I'd take care of this myself)
You are a tweaker.

As for me? 

I am NOT
*Young.
*Hung.
*A flake.

However, I AM
*Clean and neg, 
*normal and sane. 
*Average and horny.

Thanks guys.


Among the usual offenders there was this guy that replied:

Re: ive always wanted a load shot on my face
Date  7:08 AM
From:"trevor xxxxxx" <trevxxxx@gmail.com>
To:"Jack" <3Xplor@gmail.com>
Im 5'9 180 in good shape. Brown hair and trimmed facial hair... Just really enjoy workin a cock for a load sometimes.. Other than that just into females.. Do you want to shoot your load on me?


 So, we do lots of e-mail, but finally he ACTUALLY show up.  I was thinking 5'9" and 180, could be a bit chubby, but noooooooo.  The hot young stud didn't have an ounce of fat on him.  He wasn't that tall but he was perfectly proportioned, broad shoulders, tiny waist, and a very handsome face.

I don't know what I did to deserve this, but I'm not going to ook a gift stud in the mouth!

Add to this he was very enthusiastic about his BJ, and he took direction well, he even asked me to give him pointers on how I liked it.

We agreed beforehand that I needed to cum in his mouth, so when he brought me to climax, I announced I was getting close, then managed to mumble that I was cumming.   Of course I did the usual moaning and i sunk my fingers into his muscled shoulders.  This seemed to inspire him, and he sucked in earnest as I was pumping my load into his eager mouth.

In fact it was so eager, I had to tell him over and over...."easy, buddy, EASY.  Oh....slow, slow, slow, please!"

When I was through, he popped up and laughed nervously.  I think he liked it.  He used the kitchen sink to wash his hands, but refused my offer of gum.

I offered to return the favor, and suck him off.

Another time, he said.  He was polite,  but I doubt I'll ever see Football Hottie again.  That just doesn't happen to me.  

Oh well, today was great, and a great way to end my second hundred encounters.

Dude 199 Hot University Student

Whoa.  I'm creeping dangerously close to number 200.  Shit! (oh and I said creeping....which is also what I've been doing a lot of lately)

>> Sunday head.. - 24 (SLC Your Place)
>> 3:42PM MDT
>> Reply to: pers-vgpsf-2409685327@craigslist.org
>> 24, 6', 165 lbs, hung and very good looking guy is seeking to get his
>> cock sucked anytime today, Sunday.
>>
>> Please host.

I answered this post, and oddly enough, the kid hit me back.
University student.
He told me he was Ethnic, brown and hairy, but his post said "very good looking" so I didn't really know what to expect.

I had to go pick him up at the U and bring him back here.  Lots of awkward silence in the car.  What do I have in common with this guy?

This isn't him, just some pic I found on the
the web, but, he was this handsome!

Oh, by the way.....fucking drop dead handsome!  He might have been Eastern Indian, Pakastani, or Turkish.  I have no idea. He wasn't 6' tall, more like 5'8 in flip flops, but solid, beautiful olive skin ,mesmerizing green eyes, and a perfect cut cock, with a full bush of straight black pubes.  He was pretty hairy all over, but it felt great.

I brought him home, led him to the living room chair and undid the buttons on his fly.  I dropped his pants and pulled down his boxers.  His floppy brown cock exposed.  I invited him to sit, and he hesitated, so I asked if he wanted to stand.

"No, it's okay. " he said, and he sat down.  I helped him remove the rest of his pants and boxers.

What came next?  I chowed down on his dick!   Mmmmm.  It tasted clean and good.  What I wasn't expecting is that it fucking swelled to 3 times it's original size and I almost couldn't fit it in my mouth!

I loved it.  I even pushed it back in my throat as far as possible, and I savored this kids tasty weiner.   I also loved rubbing his hairy chest.  It was like soft fur and felt great.

I worked on his dick for about 15 minutes where little by little he stiffened up and then started moaning.  He made enough noise at one point leading me to believe he may have cum already, although I never felt or tasted anything.  But good sense prevailed, and I kept sucking and working his fat cock until his breathing and moaning became faster and faster.

At this point I was so horny that I felt like I might just cum in my pants, and I hadn't even touched myself!  I was sucking and bucking and so was he.  He arched his back and mumbled something like "I'm gonna cum" and I felt his dick get uber hard and pulse and then unload a nice size gob in my mouth.

I'd like to say it tasted good, but it had almost no flavor.  I swallowed.

I went into the kitchen, rinsed out my mouth, got a drink of water and secretly watched as he put on his boxers, then levis and finally flip flops.

The drive back was just as awkward, and I dropped him at the University dorms.  I texted him that I loved it and he was sexy.

He never texted back.  Go figure.

Dude 198 I want head, and instead, I suck the guy off!

Last Tuesday  I posted early in the morning, and got flake after flake hit me back.  They all wanted to blow me, but it got to late, or they got called into work, or they suddenly couldn't do it.  I was very nice to all of them, and ended with "maybe another time."

Of course, with Craigslist guys, that means "I'll never hear from you again,  until the next time you respond to my post and flake out again."

But this one guy, hit me up later Tuesday afternoon, then again Wednesday morning, then again Wednesday afternoon.

I said, "sure, come over Thursday morning and you can suck me off."  Of course I didn't think I'd ever hear from him again.

So, Thursday morning, at 7:15, I get an e-mail from him:

> From: el@hotmail.com
> Subject: Re: Early Morning BJ
> To: "3xplor@gmail.com"
> Date: Thursday,  7:06 AM
>
> Be there I'm ten min


I e-mail him back.

You'll be here in 10 min?  Interesting because you don't know my address, and I still need to shower.


So, he asks for my  address, and I don't give it out...because as soon as I do, every dude flakes out.  We go back and forth and I tell him to come to the empty lot across the street from my house, I'll give you the address.......blah blah blah.....and then he sends me his cell phone number, and I text him.

As I 'm texting, he says he's here already, and can't wait much longer as he has to get to work.

I look out the window, and see him in the lot, in his car!

So, anyway, he drives over parks in the drive way and I invite him in. He's chubby but he's got a nice fat dick.  He goes to work and gives me an aggressive BJ.  It f

eels really nice and he brings me almost to the brink several times, but each time, he pulls off and jacks me off by hand.

After about 15 minutes, I can tell he's tired of sucking me, so I offer to suck his fat dick.

We trade places and I give him a nice 7 or 8 minute knob-job on his uncut sausage.  He says it feels real good, and he's gonna cum soon.

I just hum  Ummm-hummmm. indicating I want that.

"You want me to cum in your mouth?" he asks.


MMMMMMMmmm is all I say.

I suck for a minute or two more, and his dick gets extra hard.  I feel his balls suck up, and then pulse, pulse, pulse!  He's cumming in my mouth.  Nice bit of moaning and gasping too.  It makes it all worth it.

We wrapped things up, and he offered to return the favor next time.
Hopefully it will be when I 'm a little hornier, and someone hasn't sucked me off, just 14 hours prior.

Dude 197 A mouth is a mouth

> hot mouth 4 u - 40 (Slc/dwntwn)
> 
> 12:42PM MDT
 > Reply to: pers-xunqs-2402265862@craigslist.org [Errors when replying to ads?]
> 
> I hav a hot wet little mouth a deep throat & a nice hot little tongue 2 make u cum all over my face & in my mouth anyone interested ? im 40 bi wht hwp smooth safe discreet looking for now u host your place/ur car/at the park lets do it a.s.a.p. n.s.a./no recip req./no pics (unless u want to take sum) 
> 

I answered the above post, and after hours of back and forth e-mailing.....I leave work, and drive 10 min back home to meet this guy to give me a BJ.

It's been over a week since I've been sucked off and I really wanted head.

The guy shows up, and he looks almost homeless.  Camo cargo pants,  layers of shirts, unshaven for days, stingy long hair.   He was carrying, (actually twirling) a large walking cane.  All I could think was.......well......Troll.

He said he found the cane on his walk over here.  Yah, walk.  He wanted to leave his car parked at work which was about 8 blocks away.  


A quick internet search of his e-mail turned up little more that a blank "MySpace" page, where he lists his age as 48, which is probably closer to the truth than the 40 he claimed to me in his CL post.

The Dude looked like this,
but scruffier and less handsome.

Long story short, he gave me an loose but adequate BJ.  Not a whole lot of suction, but good tongue action when I needed it.

It was so slow and delicate that I was on the edge of cumming for about 10 minutes, and it felt wonderful.  When I finally crested and started blowing my wad, the feeling of relief was indescribably good.

When I was through, I looked down at Troll, and he had cum all over his face, and stuck in his scruff, and he pulled away, and a huge thick string of white cum, stretched about 10 inches from his face to my dick head, and finally broke.

I was horrified, and threw him the handy terry cloth towel and he mopped up his mug, then gave it back to me so I could mop up my crotch.

It's weird, but when I jack off, I get very little cum.  A teaspoon max, but when these guys suck me off I seem to cum a bit more.  (Although, I'm usually much happier when I don't even know about it, because they swallow!)

Dude 196. Another young'n

Looks like I got a string of twenty-somethings going here.  It's Sunday, and I posted looking for dick to suck.

Looking to suck average Joe - m4m (SLC)
8:14AM MDT

I want to give a blowjob, to completion to average HWP Joe. Preference to slim or average, and smaller cock too.

I can host this morning, close to downtown SLC.

I'm, clean, neg and std free. Discreet and on the downlow, looking for the same.

The tweaker (I suspect) kid

No body hit me back except these two kids.  The first one was some sort of tweaker I think.  He also didn't know how old I was.








>From: 4200@deletedmail.com 
> Subject: OK
> Date: Sunday, 8:27 AM

> I'm like that.  I'm straight, but been up all night
> and feeling 
> wild.  Where are you at?  How many times have you
> done this?  Got 
> any party favors to loosen me up a bit?
> 

Ooops.  I usually include some mention that I'm older in the post.  I went back in and edited the CL post to include the work "mature" in the description of me.

I'm not going to use the word OLD!

So, I never heard from the 4200 again, but another kid hit me back:


I'll be available late this morning...

Sunday,  9:09 AM
From:"O-Taylor"
To:pers-46ub8-2382143484@craigslist.org

If the timing works for me to stop by SLC around 11:00 I'm down.  I'm average build, 25 years old, 180 lbs, fit, 6' tall, and a 6" cut/shaved/clean (and hard) dick for you!

I'm very mature, clean, bi, and willing to return the favor if wanted.  Let me know asap, as I am 2 hours our of town, but heading up later anyways so I don't mind the drive this morning!

Cheers,

O-Taylor

He was driving in from god-knows-where and would be here in a couple hours.

I gave him my stats and a pic, and he still seemed interested.  I'll be damned if he didn't drive up from a little town near Price and come over and let me blow him.

He showed up in a beater Toyota four runner, and his hair was considerably thinner than in this photo.  He was wearing glasses, and looked a bit nerdy.

I invited him in, gave him a coke, and we watched porn for a minute.  I asked if he wanted to take off his clothes and he had no problem with it.

The color of  his skin was pasty white, and his cock was on the small side, pink and shaved, looking very boyish.  I loved playing with his smooth nut sack as I went down on him bring little pinky to life.  He got super hard, super fast, and I felt his balls pull up, so I backed off, not wanting him to cum too quickly.

I licked and suckwd his smooth eggs a bit and asked if he liked that.  He said he did, and it felt great.

I went back to sucking his cock, and it kept getting softer and softer, until it was almost fully deflated.  I pulled off for a minute to take a break, and he was embarrased about losing his hard on.  I though maybe he was going to bail, but I said I loved sucking his dick, and wanted to do it some more if he was down.

He agreed, and said it felt good, so I went back to work.  Slowly, using consistent rhythm, paying attention to the sweet spot just under the head, his dick came back to life in the second round.

I kept on with steady, steady, rythmic sucking and  his cock got harder and harder, and his breathing started coming in gasps.  I stayed focused and brought him to a climax.  He announced right before it happened, and he flooded my mouth with pulse after pulse of watery jizz.  He must have cum 10 squirts, and I was afraid I was going to gag.

Somehow, I found the courage to man up and swallow that blue ribbon oyster,  and then held his dick in my mouth for another moment or two.

I pulled off and went to the kitchen sink to get some water.  I was still a little "gaggy."

He quickly pulled on his underwear, and by the time I returned, he had his shirt on and was putting on his pants.

"Thanks, I think that's it for me today."  And off he went.

"Okay.  Bye."

Thank you Opie Taylor of Mayberry.