Dude 473. I'm amazed these young hotties want to get with me.

So, I was feeling a little deserving of an orgasm, after yesterday's failure to get-off with the Amigo.  He didn't even offer to suck me off.  I guess I could have asked.  But I hate to make my problem his problem.

Nonetheless, I guess I'm using that as justification for getting some on-the-side again.

This morning after the gym, I turned on Grindr.  This guy hit me up and ultimately invited me over for mutual oral.  This was after an exchange of face pics, which I am now much or open to do.  I would say that about 40 percent of the guys I send a face pic, are still interested after I do.  I'm a pretty average looking guy, and hey, we all want handsome ones.  I get it, and I'm okay with it.

So, I shower and get ready for work, but make a detour to this guys place.

I would say he was in his late 20's, trim build, not really muscled, but not fat either.  He had much longer hair than in his picture, which was still damp.  He must have just showered.  I appreciate that.

I let him know via Grindr message that I had arrived and he let me in the front door, shirtless and wearing some blue sweatpants.  He made an apology for the messy apartment, as he led me to his messy bedroom.

He lay back on the bed, while I took off my jacket, then shoes and pants.  I went to him as he reclined on the bed, and tugged at his sweatpants, and ultimately his American Eagle boxer briefs.

His dick was already hard, with a Chaplin mustache style patch of trimmed pubes.  His cock was a similar size to mine but had a pronounced downward curve or "hook" on the end.  I've experience this kind of curved cock before and I like it.

The downward curve fits nicely at the back of the throat, heading down the esophagus instead of up towards the roof of the mouth, by the uvula and the gag reflex.  This is the only type of dick that I can truly deepthroat, which I did right away, and it felt great.

It was only a matter of seconds before I felt his balls, about the same size as mine, pull up tight and disappear into his body, and I feared that he was going to cum really quick and put an end to our fun before we even got started.

Perhaps he feared this too, because he invited me up to join him on the bed and we rolled around a bit, grabbing each other's dick with our hands.

We took turns blowing each other, and he suggested 69.

He lay on his back while I straddled him. This time it was all wrong as the downward curve of his cock was now headed the wrong way in my mouth and prohibited me from taking it as far as I would have liked.  I kept on task anyway, savoring the moment, sucking what I could comfortably and playing with his hairless taint, and brushing his butt hole occasionally.

After a few different positions, I found myself laying back and getting serviced the way I like, and told him I was going to cum soon.  He got an evil look in his eyes, peering out from his shaggy-dog-like long hair, and he went back down on me sucking out my cum and making me shake with delight.  He kept on task for most of it, and swallowed my ejaculate, save the last squirt which went dribbling down my still hard wet dick.

The kid didn't miss a beat and wrapped his hand around my dick and cleaned it off, only to lube up his own staff with it.

I got up and he replaced me on the bed, and I proceeded to repay the favor, although truth be told, I wasn't that horny, and the thought of sucking his dick with a little of my own cum on on it did not really appeal to me in that moment.

But I persevered, and it wasn't that bad.  There must have not been much cum as I couldn't really even taste it, and I sucked him in earnest to try and get him off.

Even though his nuts were still tight up against his body, I could tell this wasn't going to be super quick, and then the kid asked me if I would do him a favor.  Would I lick his nipples?

Well hell ya!  Anything to help out.

He had the most imperceptible nipple I've ever come across.  Then again, nipples in general are not really on my radar, so I guess I hadn't noticed until he asked me to lick them.  It was almost like they were painted on!  Well, I'm exaggerating, but they were smallish and flattish, and I couldn't get a rise out of them, but he seemed to enjoy what I was doing.

The whole time he fisted his dick, and worked himself up to cumming.  Then, he pulled me off his tits, and guided me to his dick and said, "Oh, eat my load man!"

Yah.  No.  I wasn't into it.

But, fair is fair, and he swallowed mine, so I put on a brave face and went back down on him and BLOOEY!  Jet after jet of cum went into my mouth.  I wanted to head for the bathroom sink and spit, or maybe spit into my sock, but I panicked and just decided to bite the bullet.  Or should I say, swallow the bullet.  Gulp, and the problem disappeared.  The little devil on my shoulder said, "there, there, now.  That wasn't so bad, was it."   And it truly wasn't.  No bad flavor or anything.

Had that happened BEFORE I cummed, then I would be all over that moment and savoured every drop, but like many of us asshole guys, the post ejaculatory me just isn't the same horny fucker as the pre-ejaculatory me.

So, I awkwardly searched for my clothes as the kid put on his sweat pants and investigated what he thought was a noise he might have heard, meaning his "roommate" might be home.  Turned out to be a false alarm and he showed me to the door.

Off I went, skipping to work, and dang if the sun didn't appear through the clouds as I drove away.

Just a little update.

Hello faithful reader, if there are any left.

My life marches on, and I'm enjoying everything so far.

A few weeks ago, there was a change in my household.  Amigo has moved in.  Officially.

He was here just about every night anyway, so, what the hell.  I was a bit reluctant, but I did/do see the practicality of it.  The only downside is that if we ever want to split up, he has no apartment to go back to.  I guess I'll burn that bridge when I cross it.

The great sex, without me achieving orgasm still is plaguing me.

Over the President's Day weekend, Amigo had Sat, Sun, Mon, & Tues off from school/work.  That means we had great sex every morning for four days.  I didn't cum once, except when Amigo took away the agony by sucking me off, Tuesday afternoon.  Whew!

Tomorrow, I'm going to try something a little different.  I'm going to use a condom.  I doubt it will work, but it's worth a shot.  My theory for this strange experiment:  What if I'm getting TOO MUCH pleasure?  I think I've mentioned that fucking him is amazing, and there's no masturbation that could equal the satisfaction and pleasure I feel from screwing his ass.  Maybe it's just too good.....??

So, I'll slip on a condom and see if that takes it down a notch.  I've nothing to lose.  I can always peel it off, right?

So, I have been thinking about this problem occasionally, and I remembered a hook-up I had a long time ago.  When I actually researched this particular hook up, I realized it was a VERY long time ago.   The guy that I hooked up with, I nicknamed "Sparky", and just for fun, I thought I might ask him about my problem.  After all, he had masturbated me with clinical precision, and gave me possibly the most intense orgasm of my life.

Here is how our e-mail convo went:


On Feb 25, 2016, at 18:44, 
<slcjackguy@yahoo.com> wrote:

Hey man.  I don't know if you remember me.  From this old e-mail, I guess I met you in July of 2009.

You know your way around the male anatomy and it showed.  

So, you said something to me that day, and it's stuck with me.  You said that you could tell if I was about to cum, and then you said your could stop it by "doing this" and then I think you kind of stroked my dick head, which was super sensitive, but did make my impending orgasms subside.

Is this right?  Did I understand wrong?

I've been thinking about this a lot lately, as I'm having trouble achieving orgasm during anal sex with my boyfriend.  It feels great, in fact almost too good.  I'm wondering if my dick head is being stimulated so much that I'm having trouble cumming.

So, if you have any insights, I'd be happy to hear them.

Let me know, even if I'm totally remembering it wrong.  The whole session with you is a little bit of a blur.  I still believe the orgasm you gave me was about the strongest I've ever experienced in my whole life!

Jack.


From: Fun Guy 
To: slcjackguy@yahoo.com 
Sent: Thursday, February 25, 2016 7:32 PM

I do remember Jack at least I think I do it was a while ago. Lol

So your having a problem cumming or cunning too fast? Is it during intercourse ? I would need to understand more. 

Sent from my iPhone



On Feb 26, 2016, at 06:34, 
<slcjackguy@yahoo.com> wrote:

My problem is that during intercourse, (I'm the top) the feeling is amazing.  Better than any masturbation toy, or hand I have ever experienced.  The sensations are mostly concentrated on the head of my cock as I thrust in and out.  It feels great, it feels fantastic, but for some reason does not result in climax, or orgasm.

I never seem to have this problem with getting a BJ, or jacking off.

Weird, huh?  Less pleasurable activities always lead to orgasm.

I was just wondering if you knew if there was such a thing as "feels TOO good."

Also I remember when you jacked me off, you said you could delay my orgasm by fisting my cockhead, or something like that,  You didn't verbalize it, you just showed me.  It sounded weird at the time, but you certainly did seem to know what you were doing!



Fun Guy Today at 4:36 PM
To slcjackguy@yahoo.com


So you could be over stimulated. Or trying to hard to force something to happen. You might just need stimulated in other ways or it could be just as simple as you're not ready. So many things factor into your climax. 

Have you looked at maybe getting yourself a toy for while you are topping your boyfriend? Maybe you could try a cream to reduce the stimulation to your cock head ( yes that is a real thing). Or depending on how long you take maybe your boyfriend could try doing what I did. 

You are correct in that I massaged the head. It is just a technique not many know. 

Really I could say a lot but it's hard to talk about this in an email. 


So, wish me luck everyone.  And yes, I know that I still have some readers left, and thank you for the comments on my posts, and the private e-mails you send to me.

Jack.

Is there a sex doctor in the house?

Dude 471, an improvement.

I'm not sure why I felt entitled to a BJ today, but for some reason I did.  Valentine's Day is approaching, and Amigo is going to want my affection, placed squarely in his ass.

I came homo for lunch and turned on Grindr.  The words on my profile pic were clear; "I want hed 2day."  When someone hit's me up, I know they are not looking for a coffee date.

So, I didn't mince words and soon the cocksuker was on his way.  I would feed him his lunch today.

The scene was a typical blow and go, like I've experienced many times before.  I put on a favorite Sean Cody porn, and an detached while my new husky cock sucking buddy sucked me off.  The BJ was pretty good.  I both appreciated and detested that Husky was chewing a piece of gum.  Although it just about guarantees fresh breath, his saliva was a little less viscous, acting more like a solvent than a lubricant, and there was just a hint of cool minty-ness that dulls the sensation just a bit.

Nonetheless, as agreed I was able to ejaculate into Husky's mouth and get some much needed relief.   I must say, that despite the mediocre to good bj he gave, the final finish was top notch, keeping my cock in his mouth, and ever-so-gently coaxing out all the orgasm.  It was so much better than jacking off.

Husky refused the handy towel to spit in, instead opting to swallow, and even taking in the remaining milt around his mouth, instead of wiping it off.  Good boy.  It's nice to see some young lads taking pride in their work these days.

Dude 470. Really bad BJ

I should have just stayed at the office for lunch, instead of going over to the 22 year-old's apartment for a quick BJ.

I asked if he swallowed.  He said yes, but then he finished me off with a bad hand job, my cum trail left quagulating on my hairy tummy.  

When I asked him for some paper towels to clean up, he smiled and returned with a roll of thin toilet paper.  What a messy clean up.  There was a lot of excess saliva to mop up too.  It quickly overwhelmed the cheap toilet tissue.

I'm going to chalk it up to a language barrier issue.  I should have just used my limited spanish to confirm everything.

Well, another lesson learned.  Sometimes it's just better to take matters into your own hands.

Dude 469. Finally, someone lets me suck their dick!

Honestly, I haven't been trying THAT hard.  To put down Grindr that is.  To stop checking out the nearby dudes when I'm in another part of town.

Today, I had to have my tire checked for a slow leak, and while waiting, I fired up the little yellow app.  Brrrrrrrpppt.   A guy only a couple hundred yards away hit me up, and started a convo.  Now, to be fair, the tire shop is only a mile from my house, so it's not really a new part of town.  And the guy that hit me up, I've seen his profile dozens of times.  He's never hit me up before, so I'm not sure why now.  Perhaps it was the immediate proximity.

We chit chatted a bit, not really sure where this might go.  His profile did not indicate that he was either into, or not into hooking up.  He showed his face, which is often a sign that the profile's owner is more interested in dating, or at least coffee, (before the sex).

So, I just asked if he liked oral, and he responded favorably.

When my car was finished a few minutes later, I drove across the street to his apartment building, and he met me at the parking garage gate, and led up to his unit.  I mean his apartment.  I would see hit unit shortly.

He was a skinny guy, with a sexy accent.  Not sure if it was European, Middle Easternn or Latin, and I didn't ask.  He knew the drill, and dropped his lounge pants as he sat on his couch.  His crotch was completely shaved (dang!) and his dick loooked a little smallish, but 30 seconds of sucking and it was soon a respectable 5 inches and it fit perfectly in my mouth.  No worries of molor scraping.  It was perfect for sucking and he pulled me off after only a few minutes and asked me to take my pants off.

I pulled my jeans and boxers to my ankles and let him have a tug on my semi, before I knelt and went down on him again.  Only a minute later he pulled me off and went to stroke me.

"Were you about to cum?" I asked.

He nodded.

"I want you to cum," I said, and he nodded again, and lay his head back and resigne himself to the orgasm and the end of our brief time together.

I went back down on him again, and he let out a sigh/moan.  "Keep Sucking" he said, like I might accidently stop at this point.

He ejaculated a small wad into my mouth, and I was able to taste a little on my tongue.  It certainly wasn't voluminous enough that I had trouble swallowing, and I gulped it down, after trying to work out every last bit.

My new friend, lay back savoring the orgasm, eyes closed as I stood and pulled my boxers, then levis over my now raging boner.

When I had my pant sup, and parka back on, he instructed me on how to let myself out of the parking garage.

I do love giving a quick BJ to slender young guys, that end in orgasm.  I hope he puts me on his "Favorites" list.

Dude 468. Another random dude sucks me off.

I think I've rounded some kind of corner, and I need to turn off Grindr, just because I'm visiting a new area of town.

That's been my M.O. lately.  Not because I'm horny to hook up, but more out of habit and for entertainment purposes.

And I guess I could turn down any offers of head that come my way, but gee,  an NSA blow job sounds pretty good most of the time, even if I'm not horny.

The kid wasn't far, and I had the keys to the empty condo nearby.

Why not.

No need to go into details, except the kid was white, 27, 5'8" and 180.  That means chunky, but he wore it well.  He was also sporting a short beard when he arrived.

I was on the couch with my pants around my ankles, when he pushed open the door, I had left cracked open.  We each said hi, and that was the only English spoken for the next 8 or 9 minutes.

The twink porn on my phone and his excellent BJ skills had me cumming in his mouth after he had worked me over some.  He was especially adept at keeping me in his mouth and tickling out every last electric pulse of my orgasm, that left me panting and convulsing.  I must say that I do my part by being fairly vocal, if
not with words, then grunts and moans.   I'm not bad with the non verbal either, like grabbing hair, and firmly holding his head while I unload my gob.

We said our thank-yous, and our good byes, and that was that.

I need to make an effort to stay off hookup aps, and craigslist for entertainment sakes.  I really, really want to save it all for Amigo, but it's tough.  The only time our schedules collide in the morning hours are on the weekends, and I'm not willing to be totally celibate during the week.

Baby steps, I guess.  Hopefully, the next time I'm horny and feel like hooking up, I can read this post and remember how I'm feeling right now.

Dude 467. NSA BJ 4 ME

It's been forever since I had an anonymous encounter.  Not for lack of trying, mind you.  Yes, I've almost quit hooking up on the side, but not totally.  Lots of reasons for that, but I won't delve into them now.

There are still a few "regulars" that I get with on occasion, and when I do, I don't blog about them.  Weird rule I have.  I only blog about the first encounter with someone new.  Generally.

 So, anyway, no regulars around today, so I fired up an app on the phone,  and this 30 year old bearded guy invited me over to his place to blow me.  For some reason, he was clear that he was just interested in giving an NSA BJ, and hey, I'm cool with that.

He had an apartment by the University, and he met me at the building's security door to let me in.

His apartment was a little messy and cluttered, and smelled just a little of the two cats that were very curious about me.

He led me to his bedroom and since I had requested some blowjob porn be playing, he surfed the net for a few minutes, while I sat awkwardly on the bed, with no pants on.

He then, herded the two cats from the room and got on his knees and began his work.  I was a little worried that I might not get hard, but the worry quickly disappeared as he worked my small dick into it's full and upright position.

He then stood and undid his jeans, lowering them just enough to get at his big fat prick.

"Woah.  Big dick! " I said.

"Yah, but don't worry", he said.  I think he was afraid that he shamed me.  Truth be known, I'm no size queen and couldn't care less, although big fat ones are fun to look at.

So, the blow job continued. He ocasionally would handle his own exposed dick.  It' wasn't a bad BJ, I guess I would call it average. Nonetheless, it was sufficient that in the usual 15 minutes, I was shooting my wad.  I didn't warn him, and he had not discussed cumming in his mouth.  Unfortunately, my newfound cocksucker choked or gagged as I unloaded, and he coughed and cum went all over.

To my delight, he regained his composure, and licked it all up, and ran his tongue across my still sensitive dick milking a few more orgasmic convulsions from my quivering body.  When he was through, only two pearls of cum remained.  One on my pee hole, and the other hanging from the side of his mouth, stuck in his beard.  Hot!

When I regained MY composure, I thanked him, and he thanked me.  He said it was way sexy and a turn on.  Very sweet.  I was busy cleaning up with a paper towel that he provided and then found my boxers, levis and shoes.

We thanked each other on the hookup app that brought us together in the first place, and who knows, maybe he'll become a regular too.

Happy New Year

Hey, Happy 2016 everyone.

Just a quick update.  Both the Amigo and I flew home yesterday.  Me from Californian and him from Mexico.

Other than Amigo's lost luggage, there were no problems.  Amigo was so nervous that Immigration would not let him return, although we researched it, and according to the rules, he can go to Mexico for up to 30 days and return without any problem on his expired student visa, as long as he has his paperwork from the school.

But two days of worry and stress was for nothing.  Finding the right guy to let him on the flight in Mexico City, and a little extra questioning upon arrival in the US, and all is well.

;)

Happy Holidays

Happy Holidays everyone.

I'm not a real fan of Christmas, but if you are then great.

I'm in Southern California with my Mom, and will drive with my sister to our Dad's house tomorrow.  This is the only place where everyone I know, is aware of my secret.  It's kind of nice.  I don't suppose that it will be too long before I let the cat of the bag with my close friends at home.  I'm still unsure about my co-workers, but I'm sure in time everyone will be on board.

The Amigo is in Mexico, visiting his family.  It's bitter sweet.

He hasn't been home in 5 years, and recently his family has suffered two tragedies.  Amigo was very upset that he was so far away, and felt so helpless.  After the first tragedy, the death of a sister, we booked him a ticket to go home for the Christmas break.  Then a couple weeks ago, a very close neice (more like a sister than a neice) was injured in a traffic accident, and had to have her foot amputated.  Amigo could not focus on his school work, and this was during his finals.  I'm afraid his grades are suffering.

Honestly, neither of us were sure if Amigo was even going to come back.  Perhaps his family needed him at home.  His sister that recently passed away was the care taker of the family, and especially Amigo's aging mother.

Amigo and I text several times a day, and we usually "facetime" chat in the morning and evening.  This year, Amigos family is apparently not celebrating Christmas.  His mom doesn't feel up to it and I guess that they are trying to respect her wishes.  At least that's my take on it.  Communication is still not perfect between the Amigo and I, and he seems reluctant to talk about the subject.

One thing I can tell is that returning home to Mexico is not the joyous occasion I thought it was going to be.  I was so happy that Amigo was returning home after a long and hard 5 years away.  I guess I failed to realize that he was returning to a saddened house.  He felt so helpless being a thousand miles away, and now, he feels helpless even though he's home.

I feel pretty sure that he will decide to come back to Utah.  I know he misses me and hopefully he can graduate in a year (or less I hope).

I'll know for sure, on New Year's day when we are both scheduled to fly back to SLC.

Until then, Happy Holidays everyone.

Post Thanksgiving.

There's not much to report here from Jackville.

The Amigo suggested we drive to California to visit my mom during his Thanksgiving break from School.  Neither of us realized that he had the entire week off, so when he found out, we made travel plans.

The Amigo LOVES my mother.  My mom is a very affectionate person and loves strong masculine hugs.  Her husband died of a sudden heard attach 8 years ago, and she craves a strong manly hug like crazy.  The Amigo has been away from home and hasn't seen HIS mother in 5 years, so he loves hugging my mom.  It's really good for both of them.  They embrace and squeeze each other when ever they are together.

The trip was good, although the drive from Salt Lake to California is 11-12 hours, and I dislike driving those long distances.  We stopped overnight in Vegas on the way down, and in Mesquite on the way back, so it's wasn't too bad.

My magic boner pills from India finally showed up 2 days before the trip.  The were sent with signature conformation, so I had to go to the post office to pick them up, but there were no other complications, and they seem to work just like the old ones did.

I also had another blog reader offer to send me his supply of Cialis, as he is a young handsome virile stud that doesn't really need them...   ;)

Thanks man.  You know who you are.

I haven't tried the Cialis yet, I'm going to wait for this weekend to give them a test drive.

Things went well for the Amigo and I on our trip.  I was a little worried that being with him 24/7 for nine straight (no pun intended) days would drive me a little crazy, but I enjoyed all of our time together.  We even had Thanksgiving dinner with another gay couple.  "Los Maricones" as the Amigo calls them.

My sister's good friend came out about 20 or 25 years ago.  He and his partner live in West Hollywood, I think.

I know......They live in West Hollywood and they are gay?  Shocking!

Last Thanksgiving, my sister invited "Los Maricones" to have dinner with them, and I was in Salt Lake, with Amigo.  We had only been dating a couple of months at that point.  I had a Skype conversation with them, and it was a little strange talking to my mom and sister, and the gay couple having dinner with them, all the time having my secret new boyfriend, just out of frame at my house.  It was just a month later that I would come out to my parents, and tell them about Amigo while visiting them last Christmas.  How time flies when you're having a gay old time, eh?

Sex with the Amigo still continues to frustrate me.  The feeling when we fuck is the best ever.  Seriously, I could not imagine a fuck toy designed to deliver more pleasure to my penis that when we screw, yet I still only achieve orgasm half the time.  When I do, it's mind blowing!  Culminating in an almost seizure like climax.  But like I said, it only happens half of the time.  The other half the poor Amigo is pummeled for 20 or more minutes until I tire or he becomes too sore.

This happened in the Hotel in Mesquite.  Luckily for me, he offered one of his fantastic blow jobs and I was able to deliver my load to him orally, then we satisfied him, by hand as usual.

Again, it's strange, as the Amigo gives me one of the best feeling BJs ever (and I'm quite the connoisseur if I do say so myself) but a few times, I've failed at achieving an orgasm by that means.  Grrrr.  So frustrating!  If it feels so good, why don't I cum ??!!

I know there is a mental block there, but I can't seem to find a sure-fire way around it.

So here it is.  December already.  My thermometer reads 18 degrees outside.  Brrrr.

Gobble, Gobble.

Again, I'm a little torn by my desire to hookup, and my desire to be faithful to the Amigo.

There was some drama a few weeks ago.  A little disagreement that led to the Amigo not spending the weekend here with me, and giving me the silent treatment for two days.  He also left me a not-so-subtle message by posting on his Facebook page:

" I believe in Love, but I doubt it will ever find me."

Ouch.

I have learned my lesson with the Amigo.  He builds things up in his mind, then reality slaps him in the face, and he over reacts.  A few days later things return to normal.  Kind of like a "market correction" in the stock market.  Over inflated values burst, stocks plummet, then rebound to about the same level.

During this period of silence, I knew the Amigo was reevaluating our relationship, and I took this as justification to look for some "D."

When he returned the following weekend, he acted as if nothing happened, and even my attempts to "talk about it" were brushed aside.

Gay Drama.  Uuuuugh.  I don't wan't it.  Again, the lesson was reinforced.....Don't participate in the drama, and things will work out fine.

Part of my justification for hooking up, is the Amigos lack of enthusiasm, when it comes to oral sex.  Both giving and receiving.   I mean he's not totally unwilling or anything, but I can tell he doesn't love it, like I do.  And....I must admit, he's turned into one great cocksucker.  His BJs feel better than most I've ever had.  Problem is stamina.  They're great for 5, 6, even 7 minutes, then.....he's tired.  He's over it.

Mostly, I ask him to blow me before we have sex, just to get me good and hard, and a little lubed up.  He does enjoy it on those terms.

Then, he surprised me on two weekends ago.  As I undressed for a shower, he came in the bedroom and pushed me to the bed and gave me head!  OMG, it was great.

One problem though.  I wasn't anticipating it, and even though it was great, I didn't cum.  In fact, after 10 minutes or so went by, and his commitment to my organism was obvious, my dick went soft!

Oh man!  If there was ever a time I wanted to reward the Amigo for taking initiative, this was it and my aging body betrayed me!  Grrrrr.

Speaking of body betrayal, I still experience difficulty in achieving orgasm while having sex with the Amigo.  It's downright baffling.  The pleasure on my dick as we fuck is mind blowing.  It's great!  Really, there's nothing like it.  Sometimes I wonder if it's too overwhelming.  Is there something like over-stimulation, over-pleasuring that derails an orgasm?  It's so frustrating!

If I know ahead of time that we are gonna f*ck, I take my 1/4 Viagra, and this allows me to maintain enough of an erection, even after the crucial 10 minute mark.  If I haven't cum in the first ten minutes of penetration, then I pass some arbitrary point, and it's unlikely that I will cum.  That doesn't keep me from trying though.  It all feels great, and sometimes, I do indeed work my self back to an orgasm.  But only sometimes.  Without the Viagra, I usually go soft after the 10 minute mark, and all hope is lost.

Speaking of Viagra, my supply of generic Sildenafil, which came from India, a couple years ago, is almost gone.  The website that I ordered it from has disappeared, and my attempts to locate something trustworthy have been unfruitful.  All the sites seem to want to take me to a Russian Website, and I'm very leery about typing in a credit card number.

Tomorrow I have a routine check up with the urologist.  I'm going to ask him for a prescription. Why not?  I think with my insurance the cost shouldn't be too bad, right?  Besides, I cut the 100 mg pills into quarters anyway.

I guess I strayed.  Back to the hookup dilemma.

So, after the unsolicited BJ attempt, I decided to try and go a week without hooking up.  Without looking at Craigslist or opening Grindr.

It didn't go well.  My will power is weak.

I didn't hookup, but I would have if some young dude had hit me up on Grindr.  I traveled outside my regular routine for work, and could not resist turning on Grindr to try and experience "New Meat Syndrome."  I guess it was fate, because nothing came through.  I did get a few hits from guys closer to my own age, but I turned everyone down, and so in the end, I went the entire week without a single hookup on the side.

This last weekend was pretty good with the Amigo.  We had a great f*ck session Saturday morning, that culminated in two very happy homos.  Sunday did not go quit as well.  I thought I was going to cum again quite quickly, during our morning session, but alas, it was not to be.  Amigo received quite a thorough pounding though, and he thanked me for it.  We are both a little frustrated when I don't cum.  :(

Later around noon, I was looking on the computer (porn) and Amigo was doing something on his laptop (homework) and watching TV.  He noticed the boner in my lounge pants, grabbed it.  This let to a kiss of my dick which led to another blowjob, and ......BOOM!  A huge powerful orgasm.

Whew!  I needed that.

I tried to repay the favor, but my BJ for him deteriorated to a hand job, and finally he took over for himself, as I did my best to help him get off with kissing, nuzzling, nipple play, etc.  Long story short: Amigo shot his wad all over the towel, and himself, and the chair and the floor.  Gee whiz.  Lechero.

So, anyway, that's it for now, except to say I got with this kid again this morning.  Dang hot young kids wanting oral!  So hard to resist!  I won't go into details....except he wanted to 69, and damn if I didn't cum in his mouth while sucking him off.  So hot.

Oddly enough when one searched the web for gay Turkey Sex, one doesn't find many photos.

Two cocks by 9AM

Dude 465 was a kid who hit me up on Grindr.  I'm not sure how he found me since I was several miles away.

It was very early morning, and his stat's weren't too bad, so I agreed to drive to his place and suck him off.  I quickly showered and headed out into the darkness.

He sent me his location using the "send location" feature on Grindr, which works very well, but only gets you so close.  He didn't send a house number.

When I arrived, I guess I parked in front of the wrong house, and he told me to "pull forward."  Then he said to "go to the right side of the garage and go to the back."   Problem was, I pulled too far forward, and walked to into the carport of the wrong house.

A voice in the darkness, called out, and I found my way next door, to the guy I was supposed to hook up with.  He was shirtless, and in bare feet and sweat pants, and guided me to an outside (well, it was a cement stairway, inside a garage) entrance to his basement apartment.  The guy didn't look 22, more like 26 or older, but who cares.

Once in there, we didn't waste much time, and both took down our pants.  His came all the way off, and mine went to my ankles.  Despite his screen name being "69" all he did was fondle my cock before I went to work in earnest on his.

He had a nice long dick.  Kind of surprising as he was a little rolly polly, and body types like that tend to have more average cocks, but cocks are like the Cracker Jack prize.  You just never know what's going to be in that package.  There were other bonuses to his dick;  It was thin enough to fit between my molars, and it had a downward banana curve to it, allowing it to go deep into my mouth and throat without triggering a gag reflex.   It's not often I can take a dick deep like that.


Almost immediately  his balls sucked up into his abdomen.  Something my testicles do as well.  I sucked for only 5 minutes or so, when I tasted cum in my mouth and noticed his breathing had changed.   There was no warning of his orgasm.

I was a good cock sucker, lightly coaxing out the longest orgasm possible.  When we finished, I swallowed, then went back to clean up his dick.


I quick pulled up my boxers and Levis over my own leaky boner, and fled, thanking him over my shoulder, as he lay back on his bed, panting in the tiny studio apartment.

While I was in the new area, I kept Grindr on, and chatted up a couple other lads, but nothing came to fruition and I drove home as the eastern sky started to grow light.  Daylight savings time starts this weekend, so it the sun doesn't come up here until almost 8AM.

As I was home, contemplating how to take care of my own hard-on, another guy on Grindr hit me up.  I guess he is Dude 466

This guy had NO info on his profile.  Nothing, nada.  He did have a full body/face picture, and he seemed nice looking.  I would have guessed an almost 30-ish business guy, or college grad student, judging from the slacks and button up shirt in his photo.

He told me he was at the airport, waiting for a flight, and had some time to mess around.  I offered to come to the airport parking garage and suck him off in the car.  "How far do you live from the airport?  Can't we go back to your place, of find somewhere more discreet?" he asked.

Sure,  Why not.  I had a dermatology appointment out south at 9:30, but there was plenty of time to do this.

So, I drove to the airport and found the guy.  He was waiting at the passenger pick up curb with his roll aboard suitcase, wearing shorts.  He had just come in from Hawaii!

Well, the guy turned out to be a young man.  I could tell right away, he was nowhere near 30!  He was very chatty, and said he was through with school and trying to figure out his next move.  I assumed he meant college.

Once back in my house, I started to take off his pants, and he asked if I was going to take off some of my clothes too.

Sure.  This doesn't have to be one sided.  I shucked my pants, but left on my t-shirt.  He got completely  naked and I fell to my knees and started to suck on his impressive cock.  At least 7 inches, when fully hard, he was cut, with a perfect mushroom head.  It was almost too big to suck, but I was up to the challenge for sure.  So tasty!  He had a nice hairy bush and furry legs too, although completely smooth above his treasure trail, save his hairy armpits.  A perfect body really.

He was moaning and really getting into it.  He grabbed my head a couple times and kissed the top of my head.  As he clawed at my t-shirt, he managed to pull me up and kissed me on the lips!  Then he got a surprised look on his face as if he suddenly realized he was doing something taboo.

We continued the BJ and after a while he informened me that he rarely cums from a BJ, and started jerking his big dick, while mauling me and kissing me.


I led him by the hand to my bedroom and unmade bed.  He lay back and we rolled around some more.  As I was gnawing on his neck, and fondling his junk, he lifted his leg, and exposed his hairy asshole.  I rubbed it and he sighed and moaned his approval.

I told him to let me know if I did anything he didn't want me to do, he should let me know.

"Okay, sure" he said, and I pushed my finger into his tight, tight asshole.

I had to spit on my finger a few times.  His anus was giving me the death grip, but he kept encouraging me to continue.  I sucked his cock and fingered his ass and he was loving it, but soon moved me out of the way so he could fist his own cock.

He did put his other hand on mine, and used it to guide me to push my finger even deeper in his ass.  He pounded his big cock and panted instructions,  "deeper, faster, yah, just like that."

I fingered his young hairy asshole as best I could.  It was still super tight, and I tried to get my mouth back on that beautiful dick, but he would not allow it.  As he fisted his dick, I found other things to suck with my mouth; his smooth torso, his nipples, his neck.  His lips.  He was in ecstasy.

Soon he gasped, and I felt his prostate pulse, and he shot jet after jet of cum, onto his stomach, the first shots almost reaching his chin.

I just watched and fingered and he shot out about 8 ropes of cum.

He let me take a couple pictures
of his cock after I he blew his wad

When he stopped pounding, I carefully withdrew my finger from his ass, and was allowed to go down on his still hard cock and taste the last pearl of jizz, and clean him off with my mouth.

Maybe it was a good thing that I didn't have it in my mouth when he erupted, as I would have surely drown.  He was covered in cum.

He lay back in post orgasmic bliss, panting and smiling, and I went to the bathroom to wash my hands, and get him a wet washcloth to clean up with.

He apologized for not allowing me to suck him off, and that he has never cum from a blow job, and he he just loves to cum on his stomach.  Truth be told, I loved watching it.

On the ride back to the airport, he was very chatty again, and he said he hadn't really been with many guys, and hoped that I didn't think he was a slut.  If he only knew.

He also said he didn't like guys his age, and thought himself more mature that his peers, and he liked older guys.

This is when I asked him how old he was.

18.

WHAT!  "Shit, your ARE 18, right?  You're not underage???!!"

He saw the panic in my face, and quicly tried to calm my fear.  "No, really, I'm 18, here, I'll prove it, I'll show you my driver's license......."

I settled down and continued the drive to the airport.

At the curb, the kid thanked me again, saying he was completely drained and couldn't' wait to get some sleep.

I thanked him as well for a super fun time, and told him to look me up again if he found himself at the airport with some time to kill.

Dude 464, I suck off Super Hottie in the car

Fresh meat syndrome.  Again.

I had to go to a different part of town, to drop off something.  As usual, I turned Grindr on and changed my screen name from "DL & Discreet" to "Down for Oral."

I was horny and wanted to get some head as well.

Then, my old suck buddy texted me.  We haven't been together since I met the Amigo.  He was going to suck me off at noon.

Yee haw!  He loves to get me off.

Well, shortly after that, I got about three messages on Grindr, but the best one said:
"Young guy, looking for oral." and he send me a cock pick and a body pic.

Nice.

He asked for a face and I sent him one.  He complimented me and sent me his.  He was a nice looking guy.

Neither of us could host, but he agreed to a bj in the car.  That's cool.

I drove out of the neighborhood I was in, and there was a small office complex nearby, with a parking lot hidden to the road, and pretty well concealed from the neighbors as well.

I sent him the address, and he said he would be there in 10 min.

Well, his picture did not do him justice!  He was handsome as fuck, like a young Tom Cruise in Risky business, except long beautiful eyelashes.

He parked his car, and hopped out and waved as if we were old friends, then comfortably sat in the passenger seat of my Jetta.

We said hi, and I told him how handsome he was, and he returned the compliment, calling me "Sir."

How polite.

I said, "Let's get to it then" and he pulled down his pants, revealing a most beautiful 7" cock.  And as a bonus, it was pretty natural, with medium brown pubes that I could not get enough of.  Why does a guys pubic region turn me on so much?  Unless it's shaved of course.  YUK.

Well, I sucked for a few minutes and the kid was very vocal.  He was moaning and cooing and grabbing my ass.  I was grabbing his tight little butt too!  Just the right amount of hair.

He moaned that I should let him reciprocate, and I thought "what the hell" so I let him have a couple minutes sucking, but not too long.  I was there to get him off, and dang, I was happy to get back to his dick.

I said "I hope you're going to cum in my mouth......"

"I'd be happy to, Sir." was his reply.

Suck, suck, suck.  He'd gone a little soft in the short absence from my mouth, but that soon changed.  I sucked for maybe 5 minutes when he told me he was going to cum, and I could feel him squirt onto my tongue and into the back of my mouth.

I savored it, and kept sucking him until he quit squirming and started to deflate.  Then I tasted it fully before swallowing, and cleaned off is dick.

I strared at it and marveled, and complimented him on it.  Then I asked if I could take a picture with my phone, and he obliged.

When I was finished, he thanked me, and called me Sir again, then skipped out of my car and back to his own.

I wouldn't mind starting every day with a little treat like that.

Conflict

I've been wanting to write about this for a long time.

I guess the time is right.

It's the conflict I feel when looking for a hookup.  Conflict because I know The Amigo would not like it.  

So, if I know it's wrong, why do I still do it?  How do I keep justifying it?  I have a boyfriend now, and still I enjoy the random hookup and the ocasional BJs from Regulars.

Rhetorical questions of course.  I can't expect an answer from my readers, it's got to come from within.  

But, this blog has helped me process my journey, and so maybe it will help me find some comfortable ground to stand on.

An update on the Amigo and me.

We are still together.  Not as much as the summer, when I was working less, and he didn't have classes, but still he comes on the weekends, and we spend Friday, Saturday and Sunday nights together.

We mostly do stay-at-home stuff.  We watch Netflix, cuddle, go to sleep together.  We copulate Saturday and Sunday mornings, then shower together.  Sometimes we eat out.  Sunday breakfast is a favorite.  Usually with my Mom, if she's in town.

Yesterday was The Amigo's birthday.  He turned 45 (although he could easily pass for 35).  He was at school, and I was at work.  I wasn't sure when I would be returning from a work project out of town, and The Amigo was dealing with some responsibilities at school.

He couldn't come and spend the night with me.  I didn't get to fall asleep spooning him, and I didn't wake up next to him, clutching me and trying to prohibit me from leaving the bed.  I won't look at porn, take my Viagra, then go in and wake him and fuck him, telling him that he "doesn't have an option."

Instead, I have the morning to myself.  To contemplate why I still crave the hookup when I'm horny.  I tell myself that The Amigo fulfills all of my emotional and relationship needs, but I still have that one area of my sexual appetite that he doesn't quite fullfill.

Before The Amigo came into my life, when finding a hookup was my number one recreational outlet, I used to rebuff anyone who was in a (gay) relationship, and looking for sex on the side.  If you are in a relationship, you should have sex with your partner, right?

Well, now it looks like I'm having a great big buffet consisting of crow and humble pie.

Dude 464? or was it a repeat?

Okay.  It was a repeat.

Which means I need to take back the number 464 and assign it to the next random dude.

I did just get a mediocre BJ from a super hot young guy.

He is actually Dude 389.

His Grindr profile said simply "Discreet."

There was no photo.  No Age. No height. No weight.

I think I might have messaged him first, but he took hours to respond back.  He sent me his pic and asked for mine.  I sent him a face pic (something I'm less hesitant to do these days) and then a dick pic.

His next question was whether I wanted to come over to his place and get "serviced" by him.

Hell Yes!

I didn't recognize him from his photo, but once I got to his place and saw him in person, I was pretty sure I had been with this guy before.

I didn't mention it, and neither did he.

He led me to the spare bedroom aka computer room/office/art room/sewing room and he knelt before me.  He was a super cute kid, with a killer build and soft spoken polite demeanor.  He undid my jeans and slid them to my knees, then pulled down my boxers.

I was totally soft, and I must admit, a little small looking.

He gave a truly delicate BJ with little suction or tongue action, but he did bring me to full mast in a minute or two.

I pulled my pants and boxers down, and off one leg to allow me to widen my stance, then asked if he minded that I sit on his computer chair.  He said fine.

Quickly he resumed his almost suctionless BJ, and his technique was to bob up and down, super fast.

Frankly, I prefer a slow, very slow head bob, with lots of tongue and plenty of suction, but this time I didn't verbalize my preference, and just watched as the blond twink worked hard bobbing my knob.

I crested a few minutes later and gasped that I was cumming, as I unloaded my wad into the boy's mouth.  We had discussed him "sucking to completion" so he took it, but I'm not sure he really wanted it.

I held his head down on my prick until my orgasm was fully enjoyed, and then let him loose.  He pulled off, looked at me and then swallowed, and I panted and recovered.  With my deflating cock in his thin twink fingers, another pearl of cum appeared from the pee hole, and he correctly bent down and licked up the last drop.

Good boy.

I didn't want to deal with that anyway.

As I was getting myself together, and doing up my pants, I brought up the subject of our meeting before.  He looked like a deer in the headlights.  He could recall living near where I had picked him up.  I reminded him of the conversation we had about his trip to Guadalajara Mexico.  He said he had been there, yes, but didn't remember me or the conversation.

As I drove away, I messaged him on Grindr, thanking him and recounted another detail of our previous conversation.

His response, was simply "Thanks for Cumming."

I was not 100% sure it was the same kid, until writing this entry in my blog.  It forced me to go through past entries, and look at the photos.  Sure enough, same tattoo on his abdomen.

Dude 463. Fresh Meet

I was running errands for work, by myself in another city, a half hour to the south.  A city famous for hot young Mormon boys.  It's always my hope that one of these curious boys will seek out a mature discreet man to introduce them to the heavenly, yet earthly pleasures of oral sex.

It hasn't happened yet.

However, I was picking up some things from an unmanned warehouse, when my Grindr went Brrreep!

I started chatting this kid up, who didn't have much info on his profile.  He said he was "just chillin" and I offered him a blow job.

He asked for a face pic, and so I sent one.

To my surprise, he didn't disappear, and said that sounded good.

He was less than a mile away, and I had to pick him up.  Luckily he agreed to come back to the warehouse and do the deed.

He sent me his location and asked that I please not pull up in front of the house, but nearby was a Subway Sandwich shop, so I pulled into the parking lot.  The kid found me a few minutes later, and hopped in the passenger seat.

The 5 minute car ride back to the warehouse was a little awkward, but we made some small talk and I nervously unlocked the warehouse door, and we went inside.  I locked the door behind us, and found a folding chair and offered him a seat.

He said he didn't mind standing, so I dropped to my knees.

Okay, maybe it wasn't
THIS big....

I let out an audible gasp, when I reached for his waistband, and found a couple inches of protruding, and leaking cock, sticking out from the top of his pants!
  Wow.  What a cock.  Probably 8 inches, perfectly shaped and a perfect nest of hair.  I get a little hard, just remembering the smell.

I pulled down his pants and started making love to that beautiful boy cock.

The kid fully participated, grabbing my head, arms and shoulders throughout the blowjob.  Even though I couldn't fit even half of it in my mouth, he enjoyed it.  It also gave me plenty to hold onto, when I wasn't playing with his medium sized nuts, or grabbing his tight little ass.

In only five minutes, he doubled over, and pulled out of my mouth, gasping, saying, that was a close call, because he was just about to cum.

I urged him to sit, and he complied, and then I hungrily went back down on his delicious cock.

Less than a minute later, he said "I'm sorry man......I'm about to cum again....."

I just moaned and said "um hmmmm" and kept sucking.  

Soon his breathing changed, and he tried to tell me again that he was going to cum, but only half the phrase came out, as his orgasm swept over him and shut down his speech.

Boom.  I felt the jets going into my throat, and bobbed to catch some on my tongue.  I gently coaxed as much out of his pulsing cock as I could, as the kid just lay back and let it happen.

I swallowed it all and cleaned his softening dick as best as I could, before getting up from my knees and heading to the bathroom to wash my hands and compose my self.  This included putting my boner back in my jeans.

I took the kid back to his neighborhood, and he thanked me and hopped out of the car.  I messaged him on Grindr......"that was hot, thanks." but heard nothing back.  At least he didnt' block me so maybe if I get back to that area, we can do it again.


This is just an amateur porn video I found online, and it isn't the kid I sucked off, but it's a pretty good representation of face, body, cock and the intensity of his orgasm:

Dude 462, another young man and I trade oral

I was working up in Park City today.  I would occasionally turn on Grindr, but no one really seemed interested.  I got a couple hits, but nothing worth going out of my way for.

Back in Salt Lake, a block from my house is a grocery store, and I stopped there to get a few things and that's when  a faceless profile sent me a message..."Want a quickie?"

This was quickly followed by receiving a face pic of young man who, according to grindr, was only 1200 feet away.

Our conversation was very short, and he never asked for a pic or any more stats that were on my profile.

He quickly biked over to my location on a side street and  pulled up alongside my car.  We said hi, and I asked him if he would mind going to the end of the street, as it dead ended at a small park.  He agreed.

I parked, he lay down his bike and got in the passenger seat.

I was a little wary of his age, and this may be some sort of sting, so I said, we never talked about "who wold give and who would receive."

He hesitated, looked thoughtful for a moment and said, that he would give.  First.

Again, fearing that I might expose my junk inappropriately, I asked if I could see his first.  I figured if he was some sort of cop, he wouldn't do it, but he didn't hesitate pulling down his nylon shorts showing me his nice semi hard uncut cock.

I followed, and soon he was giving me a nice BJ.

This was not the kid's first time either, and soon he was putting my hand on his cock, so I could jack him off as he sucked me.

This went on for a few minutes and I was pretty excited and feared cumming too quick, so I pulled him off my dick and went down on him.  It was a good size for sucking, and then he asked me if I was a bottom.

No.  How about you?

No.  (not that I had any interest in anal sex anyway)

I continued to suck him and he started probing my ass, with his finger.  I didn't mind, and it was kind of a turn on until he got a little aggressive and I as I was sucking was able to utter "um no."  He said okay, and pulled his naughty little fingers out of my pants.

It didn't take long when he told me he was getting close, an "where do you want me to cum?"

I paused briefly to tell him then decided to just let him know non verbally, and continued the blow job.

"In your mouth?" he asked.

"Ummmm Hummm." I said and I persevered.

And then he let loose right then.

He did not cum a lot, nor did he give much other indication that he had orgasmed, but there was an undeniable teaspoon of cum in my mouth.  I milked his orgasm until his young cock started to deflate, and then pulled off and tasted my sticky reward.

We thanked each other, and he pulled up his shorts and hopped out of the car.

I hope he hits me up again.  I wouldn't mind seeing the rest of his body in the light of day sometime.