Back in the saddle again.
I was worried that I wouldn't have the resolve to just give up the hookups.
Perhaps it's just justification on my part, but I really want to keep hooking up, and if I can only figure out a way around this STD thing...or fear of STDs.
Well, I looked around a bit today, and found nothing on Grindr, so I posted on Craigslist, and got a shit load of responses.
I actually drove out to bum-fuck Taylorsville to get with a "hot bottom who liked it long and deep."
He wouldn't give me his address, but made me drive to a coffee shop on the corner. He got in my car and we proceeded to drive to his house when he asked me if I had a big cock.
I said "not really." This was followed by awkward silence, then he said. "well, I'd prefer a big cock." I said, "let's just end this here."
He said "okay." He bailed out of the car while I was waiting for a light at the intersection.
That was okay, as he was a decade older than he claimed, and he was every bit as chunky as the photo he sent.
So, while on the road, I responded to another guy, who wanted my cock in his ass, and I then drove to his place.
He was clearly Latino, and claimed to be 34 5'09 175, which was about right.
I found his apartment. It was tiny. We went to the even tinier bedroom and he got to his knees and proceeded to give me a mediocre toothy blow job. When I put my hands on his head, his hair felt weird. Plastic-like. I realized it was a toupee. If I would have looked closer I would have seen it.
When I was sufficiently hard, I pulled out a condom and slipped it on and "Jorge" grabbed a bottle of hand lotion and lubed up my dick and his hole. Then he assumed the doggy style position on the edge of the bed. I got behind him and fucked.
He opened up quickly, and I spend about 10 minutes fucking him, but I knew I wasn't going to cum. His asshole relaxed so much, there was little pressure, and he refused my requests to clench down on my cock. Eventually he was moaning and whimpering with discomfort, so I let him off the hook.
He seemed interested in sucking me some more, so I told him to wipe the hand lotion from my dick and chow down. Still, it wasn't enough to do the trick, so I grabbed my cock and beat the shit out of it with my fist, until I cummed on Jorge's chest.
There was an awkward clean up session, and then I bailed, with him telling me what a good fuck it had been.
Meh.
I don't think I'll be going back.
******Today, September 18, 2014
As for the STD Scare, and the thoughts of not hooking up and not blogging.
You guys got to read about a 3-4 week period in just a few days. I'll admit, it wasn't a fun period. I had a comment on yesterday's post that suggested that I just jack off each morning, and maybe again later. Keep the horniness at bay. Stop all this nonsense. I was even challenged to "try it for a month, without hooking up."
Well, from age 28 to age 46 I had only ONE sexual encounter. That means celibacy for almost 18 years. 18 years! I know what it's like to be celibate, and I know what it's like to have all my sexual desire met by fantasy, porn and my left hand only. It wasn't bad. I'm not complaining, but I much prefer being sexually active. I'm not going back to celibacy.
I'm trying to post every day to get caught up to the present time, and I'm making progress. I really wish I had the support of you guys, earlier this spring when this shit was happening to me, so I am committed to post all my backlogged stuff, and catch up to present time. There's been a couple twists in my life I'm dying to share.
As for my medical problem, I did finally see the urologist to see if I could finally figure out what the hell was happening to me. Prostatitis? Bladder infection?
The first blood tests came back and the doctor was alarmed and called me in. He wouldn't tell me over the phone, what the problem was.
When I got to the office, the blood tests revealed low testosterone, and High PSA. These were possible signs of prostate cancer. I was worried but not too worried. We drew more blood, and ran the tests again just to make sure it wasn't some fluke, or symptoms of the recent infection.
I went back a week later, and the results were better. Improved score in both Testosterone and PSA levels. Not quite normal for a man my age, but closer to normal than alarming.
He asked that I return in a few months and get re-tested. I have an appointment sometime in October.
I've got my fingers crossed. I'm guessing crossing my legs would be the smarter course of acton....hahahaha.
I have low testosterone and use a gel (doctor prescribed) to increase it.......go every 6 months for blood work and check PSA........with age, got to do this.
ReplyDeletelove you blog!
I think you should keep doing what you like. Life is short so go out and have fun. You have my full support, my friend!
ReplyDeleteBlkJack
I think you are right. If I died today, I'd die happy. I've come a long way. With luck, I'll keep going but as for now, I'm happy with my choices even when the consequences are not what I had hoped for.
DeleteDude, I've enjoyed your blog for a while, but maybe you should pull back and raise your standards a bit. This last set of encounters is just eww, if they were half as bad as they read...
ReplyDeleteThere's a lot of ground between celibacy and meh or gross. Just sayin :)
Last time I had a blood test it included the PSA. My doctor told me not to even bother doing the PSA anymore. She said even if it was high it didn't mean prostate cancer. I never got the chance to ask her if there was anything I should be doing. She ran off too quick.
ReplyDeleteIf cold turkey isn't appealing to you, and I can completely understand why it might not be, maybe aim for quality over quantity. If you only hook up with guys you're very hot for, the sex will be better and you limit yourself in the numbers game of STIs a bit. I have no idea why I so rarely catch anything-- it's been years and I do fuck a good bit-- and it's hard to tell how often you're hooking up with your time lapse. But if I have a dry spell broken by a guy I'm very into, it erases the dry spell. When I find myself getting a little compulsive and get with guys I kick myself over later, it's as if I should never have had sex at all. And if those dudes might infect me with something, well, even worse. It's maybe a better way than thinking you'll be celibate or monogamous only, but also better than getting off with everyone available just cuz it's Tuesday and you're horny. Anyway just an idea.
ReplyDeleteThe PSA is not the most reliable test. However, at present it is the ONLY test that can detect early prostate cancer. But a PSA along with your family history is the best way they have right now. It may be that they elect to follow your PSAs for a time to see if it keeps trending upwards. The next step then would b a biopsy. If it's positive it doesn't necessarily mean that you need to treat it right away or at all. There are several options available ranging from active surveillance all the way to surgery and radiation and or lupron. Those decision depend on many factors and a urologist with experience in prostate cancer can guide you.
ReplyDeleteHowever ignoring your PSA is not an option unless they've decided it's elevated for some benign reason. No one will ever tell you that it's better to find cancer (any type) later if you can catch it early. That's why the cancers that we've had the greatest success in reducing mortality are the cancers that have a program for early detection (breast, prostate, colon, melanoma). Compare those to cancers that have no approved screening: lung, liver, pancreas, kidney and you will understand why screening is important.
As far as the hookups: It's partly a numbers game but it also has a lot to do with where you meet your partners. Anon CL posts etc are not likely to produce a pool that is low risk. Also barebacking strangers who will let YOU, someone they don't know from Adam do them bare tells you that they take risks and that you are not the only stranger the let do this. That's a very very risky endeavor is your aim is to remain HIV negative
Yes, Wonderingone. All good and correct info. My doc explained it to me. These test results just mean that I need to keep an eye on things. The low testosterone if a mystery as I have no other symptoms. I have a great libido, and no fatigue. PSA is not the great cancer indicator that we once hoped it would be, but it is an indication that further testing, could be recommended.
DeleteYes, It's obvious that some random dude that will let me bareback them, would let just about anyone do it. I know. Risky. I'm taking some steps. I hope it goes well.