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Well, the day is here.  It's Sunday morning, October 19.

I'm all caught up with myself.

It's early, as usual, and Amigo is asleep in my bed.

It was a pretty chilly week, last week.  Not weather-wise, but relationship-wise.  We sent a few guarded text messages to each other, and then late, after work on Thursday, I sent him a lengthy email,  I tried to be as honest as I could, and outline my thoughts and expectations.  I'd post the whole letter here, but really, who wants those details?

I did ask him how he could be in love with me after only 5 weeks.  I told him I enjoyed our time together but needed to take is slowly.  I also told him I would probably never want to get married.  I know he's wasted time before in a doomed relationship, and this may be the case again, but I am not ready to make any commitments at this point.

Much to my surprise, his attitude turned around 180 degrees!

He offered to spend the weekend again, and he's been his cheerful old self.  He's backed off of the "I love you" stuff, and now keeps telling me he really likes me.  This is a sentiment I feel like I can reciprocate.

We talked about my e-mail a bit and he thanked me, and understands.  Then we had a chat about the holidays.  I know I will be out of town for a few weeks, and assuming we are still dating, he will be alone.  I know it will be hard.  His family is in Mexico and most of his friends are students and will be going home, so he will be left alone.  He did his best to put my mind at ease.

So, a couple lessons I have learned.  Try to be honest and upfront with my feelings.  Let the chips fall where they may.  I suck at face to face communication, at least for now, but apparently I am capable of composing an articulate e-mail, so I can always fall back on that.

Since this is a hookup blog, and I haven't had many hook up stories to tell, I am losing readers.  I can understand.  I'm in new and uncharted territory, and to most of you, this kind of stuff is daily hum drum jibber-jabber.

So, I will let you in on the sexual aspect of our relationship.

I am having trouble achieving orgasm with my new amigo.  I know most of it is psychological, and I suspect it has to do with attaching intimacy with the sex, as most of my encounters for the past 6 1/2 years have been rather anonymous, or at least detached from emotion.  The forbidden and taboo nature of it all, made it more exciting.

I think it was our second or third time together that I finally cummed with Amigo.  I did it by grinding my bare dick in his butt crack.  Like many out there, the condom covered cock just doesn't have enough sensitivity to get the job done usually.

Oh, by the way, Amigo loves to get fucked.

The second time I cummed with Amigo, we had just graduated to fucking bareback, and something in his ass just tickled me in the just the right spot, and I blew my wad in his butt, then we both rolled on our side, me still docked in his ass, and he quickly blew his wad all over the fuck blanket.

(How do those small testicles hold so much damn cum???)

The third time I cummed with Amigo, was last weekend.  He gave me an amazing blow job.  Now, you all know that I love BJs.  But Amigo didn't have the stamina.  He tried several times but always got tired, and gave up.

Well, something happened last weekend.  I think he just stepped up to the plate and screwed on his determination that he was going to please me, because he stayed on task and gave me a first rate bj.  First time was in the shower, which was no easy feat, and the second time I sat in the chair and watched twink porn as he serviced me.

We've screwed three times already this weekend, and each time, felt great.  Amazing in fact, but I always fail to orgasm.  Amigo refuses to cum as well.  He wants to save it until after I cum.  I guess that's his decision, although I keep telling him I want to watch him blow as I plow him.  But, it's his orgasm, I'll let him have it his own way.

Last night, as we were settling in for a night of movie watching and snuggling on the couch, he started making out with me.   I joked and said he wanted to get fucked again.  He just kept it up, so I yanked down his pants and bent him over the couch and drilled him from behind, using some olive oil from the kitchen.   It was fun and spontaneous and I thought like I might cum this time, but alas, the big O was elusive.

Today, I'm going to take my boner pill, and I'm not going to give up until I cum or until my Amigo can't take it any more.   I know he is very interested in pleasing me, and the tangible evidence of that is my orgasm.  So, no pressure or anything.  (can you hear the sarcasm in my voice?)

For those of you still reading, thanks for following along.  I know this line of my story is inconsistent with the hookup blog you started reading some time ago.  But it's time, right?  This is an experience I need to have, and to be honest I need to share.   Right now, besides my readers, I am out to only two of my friends.  One, my best friend (female) who lives in Germany, and the other, a good friend (also female) who lives in Iowa.

If the boyfriend thing works out, I will have no choice but to widen that circle.  This is something I never envisioned when I started all of this craziness.  I have no plan for it.  It's silly to think that denial is still a viable option.

Hmmmmmm.   Sounds like more drama to come.